paper and ink acquaintance

Chapter 89 Anxiety

The boring meal seemed to be for the mechanical movements of the body.

Lin Yimo took over the task of washing dishes.

It was he who gave Gu Yun the task, now contact Su Cheng.

"How is it, Xiaojun." Lin Yimo saw that Gu Jun was holding the phone without fluctuation, as if he was intoxicated in chatting.

Gu Jun handed over the phone, and it was a chat record that started with Gu Jun.

Gu Jun: Are you there?

Do you study at school?

Sioux City: I'm not at school

I asked the class teacher for leave

At home

Gu Jun: Shall we talk?

you should have something to say

During this period of time, Sioux City did not reply immediately.

Su Cheng: Come out and talk, okay?

no one else

"No, judging by the extent of this word, he really dislikes me, but he doesn't rule out the possibility of disobedience to other people besides you."

"So, should I talk to him now?" Gu Jun was asking for his boss's opinion.

"Reply to him, where do you want to talk?" The adhesive foam on the bowl in Lin Yimo's hand gradually slipped.

Gu Jun: Where do we need to talk?

Sioux City: My Home

"It feels like I'm pushing an inch." Lin Yimo commented, and he commanded weakly, "Let him post the position."

Gu Ye clicked on the specific location and submitted it to Lin Yimo for observation.

Lin Yimo was puzzled: "The house next to our school? He rented it outside?"

In the third year of senior high school, some students applied to live out, some parents accompanied them, and some of their own wishes, but all of them required verbal and documented communication between parents and the school.

"No, his house used to be near the hotel, and I would run into him in my freshman year of high school. It's very close to my uncle's and aunt's house."

"Xiaoyun..." Lin Yimo's worry was self-evident.

He is too prone to fantasies, especially when he focuses on illusory things. Sometimes when Gu Yan goes out and returns late, he is afraid that something will happen to Gu Yan, and he is afraid that the call he will receive is from a medical staff, or a call from a security guard...

Undue tension.

"Are you afraid? Are you worried?"

Lin Yimo didn't say a word, all this wind-like atmosphere almost forced his tears, he was wronged.

Gu Yun didn't know what kind of psychology this was, he could just let it go, he could forget about the eyes and expressions he had received, and the conversation in the afternoon, and even now there was a major event in his life - the college entrance examination approaching.

He needs to go to a university with Lin Yimo, and he will even delay Lin Yimo's study thoughts.

But it was precisely because Gu Jun took those expressions as a distress signal from Su Cheng.

He didn't allow himself to fall on deaf ears.

"Things still have to be resolved. His haggard and over-stressed state made me feel that he would not use such a large circle to do anything to me."

"I'm just scared..."

Isn't what happened to Gu Yun strange enough?Domestic violence, school violence, and even the painful departure of the closest ones, followed by the acceptance of the mother's return, and how could the things behind it be as simple as a verbal understatement.

Simply outrageous.

"It's okay, I will give you the location, and then we will connect with the mobile phone."

"But he doesn't want me to know."

"He won't know, and you will know the whole story sooner or later." Gu Jun said, "Take it as a safety bolt, and if something goes wrong, it will be convenient for you to know."

It is also convenient for you to know, it is convenient for you to call the police, and it is convenient for you to call an ambulance...

Under the pressure of all the high-pressure life, he seemed too fragile to accept the conversation at this time, and his weak nerve response made him unconsciously shed tears.

"It's okay, baby." Lin Yimo found out Gu Yun's soothing tone of voice.

The foam in Lin Yimo's hands made him raise his arms, and let the fibers of the clothes take away the tears.

"Ah."

"Look at your aggrieved mouth, I will come back to study with you immediately." Gu Jun wiped away the tears that Lin Yimo could not completely wipe away.

"You're the one who pouts aggrievedly."

"Then why am I wronged and pouted?"

"You hate me."

"Yeah, because I miss you, I will come back soon."

"Shall we go now?"

"Well, I'll be right back too."

"Then wait for your triumphant return, General Gu."

Gu Yun's vacillation that had just been shaken was finally pressed firmly by Lin Yimo himself, and Gu Yun smiled comfortably.

The two of them were ready for all connections, and Gu Ye was also ready to fight a psychological battle.

Lin Yimo's tears were an uncontrollable valve, his eyes that had just relaxed became tense again, and he forcibly covered it up with words: "Be careful on the road, I'm going to wash the dishes first."

Gu Yun caught Lin Yimo's dodging eyes, he caressed Lin Yimo's cheeks with both hands, he kissed Lin Yimo's tears, and then licked and licked away the tears: "The remaining half, wait for me to come back Kiss again."

He didn't continue to stay at the door to remember Gu Yun's leaving back, he curled up behind the door and cried, his tears were more anxious than sensational.

This painful appearance made him incomprehensible, and the endless entanglement in his thoughts aroused many horrible predictions about the future and worries about the past.

— Childhood

"Little Mo, you're pouting again, right?"

"Xiaomo, don't cry~"

The mother used to hold Lin Yimo's face with both hands, and gently wiped away Lin Yimo's tears.

Mother's fingers were slender, with the most vivid red armor, but also the most delicate and gentle strength.

"Xiaomo~ Mom will take a picture for you." Lin Qingyi held up his old-fashioned mobile phone, and Lin Qingyi didn't know how he learned about Lin Yimo's weakness.

Every time Lin Yimo was afraid that Lin Qingyi would take a picture of him crying, so every time when his mother raised the phone, Lin Yimo directly put the teary face into her mother's arms, and sometimes hugged her mother's thigh tightly Cover the face.

Lin Qingyi immediately put away the phone, and even got Lin Yimo's tearful smile from time to time. Lin Yimo even felt that he was being molested, and smiled shyly with tears in his eyes.

Lin Yimo is well-behaved and sensible, he will not be hysterical, his efforts are to hide his grievances, but he will never be able to hide them.

Lin Qingyi loves her dearly, but she has nothing to do with life. She is an adult and knows how to weigh the pros and cons, and she understands that life should weigh the pros and cons, so she left early, leaving Lin Yimo alone in her heart.

Mother's tenderness is like water, and longing is like a dream.

Lin Yimo's phone also had words in the sparse voice: "Baby, I'm coming soon, don't cry secretly."

Lin Yimo got up, he was completely silent, Gu Jun couldn't receive his sobs.Lin Yimo packed up his appearance, he didn't have time to cry anymore.

"Are you home alone?"

"Well, I'm home alone."

Lin Yimo could clearly hear their conversation. Although it was filtered through the cotton of the clothes, he could still hear the sound of Su Cheng locking the door.

"Is this your home? Or did you rent it?"

Gu Jun didn't directly cut into the topic, it seemed to be giving Lin Yimo a chance to understand his current situation.

But Lin Yimo couldn't wait for Lai Sucheng's answer, and Lin Yimo could even bring out Sucheng's breath-holding demeanor from the freezing of the air, looking like he was in panic all day long.

Then it was still Gu Yun's words.

"It's okay if you don't want to say, don't be nervous." Gu Jun subtly relaxed Su Cheng's high tension, but he casually wanted to tick off the answer he wanted. You, that's why you mistakenly think that your home is over there."

"Did you notice me in the first year of high school?"

"We were at the same table before, weren't we?"

"I thought you wouldn't notice me in your spare time."

He seems to be looking for a sense of existence, which is easy to be interpreted as: Have you noticed me?No one can notice me, my sense of existence is really low...

His words confided that he got a little relief.

"No, I'm used to being alone, but it's not enough to deny people." Gu Jun said, "So does your family live here?"

"No, I live alone, and I did live there before."

His words dropped again.

"Then living here is close to the school and convenient."

In fact, the original place is not far away.

"Yes……"

He gradually falters...

"Is there anything I need to say?" Gu Jun's tone was light, not serious, he was trying to make Su Cheng relax: "Say it, maybe you can relax a little, and I was looking for you to talk to."

"Why are you coming?"

"You stopped me that day, didn't you mean to talk to me?"

"Then you obviously don't have to come, why?"

"I think you need to talk, you need to talk to relax, so I can help you."

Lin Yimo was startled in front of the mobile phone, he seemed to hear sobbing, did Su Cheng cry directly?

"Cry as soon as you feel comfortable."

Lin Yimo could hear the sound of the paper rubbing against the packaging bag, it should be Gu Yun who handed out the paper to Su Cheng.

"I don't know what to say?" he said with sobs.

"Are your thoughts complicated?"

"Well, it's messy..."

"Is it too much pressure?"

"The pressure is too much...really too much..."

Lin Yimo couldn't hear any words from Gu Ye, only the same sound of drawing paper, Gu Ye handed three more papers to Su Cheng.

"very tired……"

"This life is really tiring..."

"Is the study pressure too much?"

He ignored Gu Yun's question and began to describe himself:

"I live here...and no one knows..."

"They only know how to criticize and even abuse..."

"It's embarrassing..."

"They didn't even know I moved out..."

"even……"

Lin Yimo could feel tears flowing through the screen, and he could also feel the sudden stop of his collapse.

what happened?

"what happened?"

"No."

This cry of determination was like his irrational venting just after overthrowing, and he was restrained suddenly.

But the cry of his buried hands was even more painful, and his despair was reflected heavily in front of Lin Yimo...

"The pressure...is really too much..."

The only thing he can say is that a person's collapse does not come from verbal descriptions with flowery words.

Lin Yimo could feel Gu's helplessness through the screen, Gu's really not good at coaxing people.

"In fact, everyone is under a lot of pressure..."

"Different!"

"It's not the same at all..."

The appearance of Su Cheng is Lin Yimo's understanding of pushing an inch. Gu Jun gave him a hug, and he wanted to splash before hugging him.

"I know that an understatement of 'I can understand' is a kind of irony to you. I understand that your suffering cannot be explained in a few words, so let me tell you about me."

Gu Jun gave Su Cheng the time to think about his opinions and express his opinions. He was just speechless, as if he was waiting.

"My current life may be the best life for me. Although there are many, many regrets, it is indeed my best time."

Of course, the biggest regret is my sister.

Hearing these words, Lin Yimo seemed to have received Gu Yun's confession, but he was sad. Lin Yimo was more sad than those Gu Yun's journey through the wind and rain and wearing stars and wearing moons that evoked in his mind at this time.

"I've had tough times before."

"I grew up without the love of my parents. My mother passed away, and my father was violent. I don't even remember their faces."

Gu Yun spoke calmly, perhaps because he didn't have any greed for these two loves from the bottom of his heart at that time, or even cast aside them.

But talking to Sioux City can give a certain amount of relief, and quietly draw the distance between them, allowing Gu Jun to try to step into that barrier. After all, it is easy for people of the same kind to entrust their emotions.

"I also hit a wall all the way..."

"I've even personally received news of the deaths of people close to me."

"It was a sudden departure without warning."

Gu Jun's choked sobs pierced Lin Yimo's throat, and his throat couldn't help sobbing.

"I also took sleeping pills."

"I also ate it when I was a freshman in high school."

"Did you see it?"

Lin Yimo failed to hear Su Cheng's answer, but seemed to realize that Su Cheng slowly shook his head.

Because Lin Yimo couldn't see it.

"I didn't eat one or two tablets, but one bottle, two bottles or even three bottles."

"The kind that directly faces death after eating too much."

"I've been holding on."

"No one cares about me, no one greets me."

Gu Jun never intended to exaggerate his pity and misery in such an exaggerated manner, but it was all to give Su Cheng a sense of closeness.

Su Cheng turned back the memories, and Gu Jun's cold appearance at that time was indeed terrifying. It turned out that he was holding on to a seemingly hard armor, which must be very heavy.

"Of course I'm not comparing you to being miserable, but I want to tell you that if this level can be compared with the pressure in your heart, then I can understand your mood."

Su Cheng didn't answer, more like giving an affirmative answer.

"So you have any pressure, you can tell me, and I can help you."

"As an emotional animal, human beings cannot live without love. I understand. You can try to find it. I don't want to tell you how miserable my experience is, but you should be able to understand."

"I know this verbal expression is always so easy, but the real experience is always cruel."

"I know that you will definitely not be relaxed, and your pressure can't be explained at all, so you can try to let me help you solve it."

"oh, I understand now……"

For Su Cheng, who is sensitive and fragile at this time, this heart-to-heart confession is simply too useful. Gu Jun's remarks made his restless heart feel at ease.

After a moment of silence between the two, Su Cheng repeated with a thick nasal voice: "I understand..."

"I just—" he paused for a moment, "—too much pressure to study."

"In terms of study, if you have anything you need to ask me, you can ask me. If you are under pressure, we can talk..."

Su Cheng interrupted Gu Yun: "I know..."

"Let me think about it alone, I'm bothering you, you go back to study."

"Okay, then you are alone and calm down. If you need to talk again, you can tell me."

Su Cheng stood up slowly, and followed the trend to drive Gu Jun to stand up. Gu Jun took care again: "You can drink hot milk at night, and have a good sleep."

"Ok, I know."

The two of them had already reached the door, and Su Cheng opened the door: "I won't give away more, just be careful on your own way."

"Okay, then you rest early."

Gu Yun's eyes paused at the door for a moment, the words that night had exhausted him, he went down the stairs speechless.

"Gu Jun!"

"What's wrong? Is there anything else to say?"

Gu Jun's short-sightedness made him unable to grasp Su Cheng's expression, he only heard: "Be careful on the road, the road is dark."

"Well, go in earlier." Gu Yun heard the metal sound of the doorknob just as he turned around, and finally let go of his nervousness.

Gu Yun trotted away, and he finally took out the mobile phone in his arms: "Hey, boss, I'm going back right now."

"Hey?"

"Boss, are you there?"

"Hello? Baby, did you turn on your voice?"

"Hey?"

……