Wen San'er

Chapter 16 For the sake of

Since Nanmu's "little gift" was finished, San'er has been looking for an opportunity, how should I give it to him?If you give it to him directly, he may not accept it, and you may become the first person to die because of embarrassment.Give it to him indirectly, how about an indirect method?San'er moved her small eyes carefully, and thought of a good way.

Today, San'er was going to clean up Cheng Yu's study room. In fact, this kind of miscellaneous work was usually not done by San'er, but there was no way, and sometimes San'er couldn't stand it. It's a mess, it's better to ignore it than to ignore it.But San'er went to sort out books, not just to sort out books, there was still a task!

Cheng Yu was not reading quietly as he imagined, but sitting at the desk, obediently twirling a stick of glutinous rice, eating it very deliciously.Ganzhou doesn't have such food as glutinous rice noodles, but he can't help but like it. When he moved, he even brought the pastry chef with him. Therefore, although Chengyu was exiled by his father, his life was not bitter.Imagine a cold young master with a poker face eating glutinous rice sticks. The beauty of this picture seems to hit my heart directly through words.When Chengyu was eating, his guard was at his lowest, and you could hear many of his emotions and thoughts at this time, which was summed up by San'er later.

"San'er, have you thought about getting married?"

San'er's hand holding the book paused for a moment.

"Well, I've thought about it. I want to wait for my wife to give birth to the young master and help you share a little bit. When I have a little leisure at home, I will talk about a girl."

In fact, San'er didn't lie, he really thought about it. When Cheng Yu got married, he liked Cheng Yu. , the best thing is that the two elope hand in hand, one doesn't want the throne, the other doesn't want his father and siblings, away from the world, living in seclusion in the deep mountains and old forests, let's not say whether Chengyu is willing or not, just want Chengyu's pampered body, it's not good If I can't dress well and live well, I won't be at ease and happy for the rest of my life, and I still can't do it if I let myself abandon my father and Xiaowu Xiaoliu.But now in this medium situation, even if Cheng Yu likes him, he can only be Cheng Yu's male favorite secretly. It is good to be able to guard the person he likes. If you want to dedicate your life for Chengyu, for his Xuanfu envoy, this is not because San'er minds dedicating anything for the one you love, on the contrary, if San'er is going to die for Chengyu now, San'er can't even look at it. Won't blink.But he is afraid that if he chooses this path, he will not be able to calm his mind. He wants to pay for his lover, and his lover will deceive you and use your feelings. This kind of psychological impact on San'er is different. He is afraid One day he regretted it, had an epiphany, felt pain, would hate it, would hate Chengyu, this was the last thing he wanted.The worst remaining situation, of course, is that you act as if you don’t know it and I don’t feel it, and get married separately. No matter how much love you have, it may be buried deep in your heart to be with you for the rest of your life, San’er thinks so.

As for getting married, Lao Wen really didn't tell San'er anything, but one day when he had a drink with San'er, Lao Wen stroked his head and said, "You can't indulge in impossible things. Only when you are open can you live a good life." Lao Wen stroked his head, a doting smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "You have always been very good and smart, but Dad hopes that you can live more freely."

At that time, San'er only heard that his father already knew his feelings for Chengyu, but he didn't blame him for persuading him.Later, after going through a lot of things, San'er realized that the important thing in his father's words was not the first half of the sentence, but the second half of the sentence. The 17-year-old San'er lived in a set, in what he thought was "himself". "The person in ", he lived in a "three children" that Chengyu needed, that was not his nature, although he didn't feel that he was living unhappy at that time, but it seemed that he was really dull to the point of no waves, he He thought that was what he wanted, he thought he was willing to live for Cheng Yu.But, that's wrong.

In this world, no one lives for another.Even if you love that person again, relatives, friends, lovers, willing to confide in him, willing to live and die for him, he will be very touched, but the touch is not for a lifetime, the more time passes, the more tired he will be, it is not physical Tiredness can be recovered by rest and diet. It is mental fatigue, and it is irreversible. When a person is tired, he either escapes or resists. There is no such case in many past events since ancient times.Therefore, everyone has to live for themselves, this is what San'er learned later.

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