To say goodbye is to die a little

Chapter 18

Chang Yue can't be insensitive, he has been sensitive since he was a child.

He was expecting what Su Yan would say, but if Su Yan said something else, he wouldn't have any thoughts.

After all, I am used to it.

"I said I don't like sugar, so why would I still eat it?" This kind of general condemnation has been in his ears since he was a child. At that time, his mind was not perfect, and he was particularly insecure. , He can't forget many things.

It is not completely unreasonable to say that three-year-olds look older than seven-year-olds.

A person's growth environment will not change dramatically in a short period of time, and there are only a few.So what happened at the beginning, it will remain the same for three to four years, seven or eight years or even longer.

"What will you do if your grandparents are old and don't want you?"

"Don't you dislike dad? Then what will you do when your mother is married?"

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Chang Yue has grown up listening to these questions since he can remember, which is a family meal.Even when he changed his environment when he was eight years old, he still faced the problem of changing the soup but not the medicine.

"Aren't you shy? Why are you still performing on stage?"

"Don't you don't like sugar? Why do you still eat it?"

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Before the age of eight, I felt wronged, at least I could act coquettishly with my grandparents occasionally, but there was no room for it later, so I had to resolve it by myself, and if I couldn’t resolve it, it quietly piled up as time went on, forming a trail leading to an unknown place in my heart.

"If you don't like sugar, you must not eat sugar." This gradually formed sentence made Chang Yue paranoid for a while, but when he was a little older, he found that the people around him were always saying and doing something different.

This made him feel that the world was extremely hypocritical.

The emergence of this idea made him feel very tired.At that time, he chose to ignore himself and everything else, and he was clearly in the hustle and bustle, but he always wandered away.

There was a time when he was sitting in the classroom and heard others talking about study and test scores, which were obviously only the job of the students, but he felt that it was out of reach...

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Childhood misfortune, it is impossible to really let go of a few insignificant words of comfort from others.The lonely beast in the cage in his heart has to try to get out of touch with the world, step on the fierce knife point on the edge of the world, and grasp the goodwill of the center of the world when his life is hanging by a thread, before he is willing to let go of all the past.

The so-called living to death.

Even though this method has many criticisms, there are many sequelae.But when faced with the "children's speech without restraint" defined as "harmless", and the state of isolation and helplessness, I had no choice but to choose this solution.

Su Yan's voice was clear and hoarse, and the sound of raindrops hitting the umbrella surface was clear and unobtrusive.

"I just don't want to be late, and neither do I."

No matter how indifferent Chang Yue behaved, the hope in his heart never stopped flowing, but he hid it well.He was just curious, hooked by some vague thoughts, and never expected Su Yan's answer to be like this.

It's just a simple sentence, but it's just right.

The thoughts of exclusiveness were suddenly injected with a gurgling warm current, and they spread silently in my heart.

"That's right!" Chang Yue hurriedly stopped the corners of his lips that were about to rise, "You are worthy of being a top student."

Still can't hold back.

Su Yan lowered his eyes to look at the road, and put his mind on the left side. Seeing him jumping so happily and saying compliments, he couldn't help holding his face and rubbing it, "Don't talk like Dr. Li, he That man is black-bellied."

"However you move, you--!" Chang Yue heard his voice breaking, and hurriedly pulled his hand away, the heat was on his face, but it was not easy to investigate.

He could only rub his face, and muttered, "Where is Dr. Li's belly?"

"It looks very black-bellied."

"The next two students who are still playing around, which class are you in? Class starts in 2 minutes! Let me see if you are late!"

Chang Yuegang and Su Yangang squeezed into the school gate, and a deafening shout mixed with majesty broke the rain curtain and exploded in the ears.The umbrella in Chang Yue's hand tilted back, and the dean appeared at the top of the steps.

Those around who heard this menacing shout subconsciously speeded up and climbed up, while Chang Yue subconsciously lowered the umbrella to cover his face, and nervously asked Su Yan what to do.

"Don't panic."

Su Yan put his arms around his shoulders as usual, and immediately began to pretend to be lame. The two of them staggered and climbed up, and the bell rang after walking halfway.

The dean began to reprimand people.

Su Yan hangs the whole body on Chang Yue's body. Although he hangs it very skillfully, it can make Chang Yue feel that he is being pulled up during a certain movement, but the distance is too close, and walking is tiring.

When he was almost at the top, Changyue was already exhausted, and his head was getting hot because he hadn't been close to anyone for such a long time. He didn't care about worrying that the dean was the most vicious person in the school.They walked at the back, and the student who was the second-to-last slowest was reprimanded for a while trembling, and had already run away.

The dean held a powerful flashlight in his hand, flicked it, and after a few steps, he was going to give them a scolding.

Chang Yue was caught by the light, turned his head subconsciously, the umbrella surface was a little higher, and the outline of Su Yan appeared, and the dean changed his words: "It turned out to be classmate Su Yan, what's the matter, your feet are not healed yet?"

"Hello, Teacher Jiang." Su Yan walked up the last step and greeted calmly.

He patted Chang Yue on the shoulder, and the latter immediately followed up to say hello.

"Yeah." The director nodded, turned off the flashlight, put his hands behind his back, looked at them back and forth, but most of the time he looked at Su Yan.

Being swept away by the dean, Chang Yue subconsciously wanted to hide behind Su Yan, but he endured it.

"My feet are not fully healed yet," Su Yan said. "It's been raining recently, and I feel a little uncomfortable, so I went to Dr. Li Zhixing for a checkup just now. I came here in a hurry, but I didn't expect to be late. I'm sorry."

The dean was completely relaxed now, "Well, it's understandable! Hurry up and go to the classroom."

"Thank you teacher," Su Yan said, "You have worked hard too."

The dean looked at Chang Yue again, Chang Yue quickly copied Su Yan's words, the dean nodded after listening, waved his bare hands, and the two quickly slipped away.

"how do you feel?"

Su Yan let go of the hand around Chang Yue's shoulder, took the umbrella and held it, and asked Chang Yue how he felt about being caught late, after all, it was the first time.

"...Not so good, don't be late next time."

Su Yan fiddled with Chang Yue's forehead hair that was splashed by the rain when he closed the umbrella with great interest, and agreed, "Okay."

The noise of class 774 can be faintly heard in the corridor.

Knowing that the teacher was not there, Chang Yue breathed a sigh of relief.Just as he was about to say goodbye to Su Yan who was turning right, he turned around and saw Kaohsiung.

Kaohsiung stood behind Su Yan, he didn't see it, and pushed Chang Yue, "Go back to the classroom, it's cold outside."

Chang Yue looked at Su Yan for a while, really didn't know how to remind him, so he nodded indiscriminately, and quickly slipped away.

Su Yan looked at him, scratched his hair, and almost hugged Gao Xiong when he turned around.

"I'm 5 minutes late." Seeing that Su Yan was about to explain, Kaohsiung continued, "I'm not going to be an example."

"Okay," Su Yan smiled, "I promise."

Ever since the rain in physical education class, winter has hit hard.It was windy and rainy every day, and the ground was never dry. The physical education class could only be justified and was taken over by other classes. Almost everyone on the campus was wrapped in thick and warm clothes, which fully stretched the school uniform.

Chang Yue was quite afraid of the cold, so he not only wore long johns, but also a very warm thick sweater. Fortunately, his school uniform was too big to wear.

As soon as the results of the monthly exam in December came out, he was only one place ahead of the midterm exam, so there was nothing to be happy about.

Su Yan is still No.1.

The Chinese teacher on the stage was explaining the test papers, and praised Su Yan's composition over and over again, with concise and concise words, just the right rhythm, and extremely rich sense of imagery.

After she had finished her compliments, she immediately called the representative of the Chinese department to read the full-score composition.

The representative of the department is a girl, who reads Su Yan's composition, with a sweet voice, ups and downs, vivid facial expressions, and Chang Yue listens intently.

After listening to it, he couldn't help sighing. He read the reading materials several times during the exam, but he didn't know how to write.

After this class was over, Su Yan passed by the classroom window again, and Chang Yue saw his eyes light up.

Su Yan came in from the back door, Zhi Qiyuan was still on the seat, and Chang Yue gave up half of the chair.

Every time Su Yan comes, the class is very lively, especially when the girls see her, their eyes always shine.

Su Yan didn't sit down at first, but put one hand on the back of Changyue's chair.He has long hands and long legs, and he can't hide his sharp eyebrows. Even though he is loose, he still has a strong sense of oppression from the bottom up.

It will look a little alienated.

"Sit down," Chang Yue patted the chair, "The Chinese teacher showed us your composition just now."

"Ah."

Chang Yue's tone seemed to be saying something extraordinary.

Seeing that Su Yan was in good spirits, he sat down, occupying half of Chang Yue's chair.

The chair was still a little crowded for two people, and Chang Yue gave up half of it to him. He sat back, rubbed his fingertips, and put it on Chang Yue's shoulders, stabilizing his body.

Chang Yue leaned directly on Su Yan's body, and the two seemed to be cuddling each other.

This time, not only the girls pushed and laughed, and exclaimed uncontrollably, Zhi Qiyuan yelled in horror: "I'm going to the same table, are you frozen? Did you feel his hand?" Just brushed your slippery skin?"

Just as Chang Yue was about to say something to Su Yan, when he heard these words, he turned his head to look at Zhi Qiyuan, and then he twisted his neck slightly, "I'm not frozen, I can feel it as soon as you say it."

Zhi Qiyuan: "..."

Su Yan leaned on the back of the chair, looked up at Zhi Qiyuan with a smile on her face.

"That's it?"

Chang Yue reacted and explained to Zhi Qiyuan: "I don't feel itchy."

"I understand," Zhi Qiyuan said with a deep expression on his face, "As long as you can't react well, the itch won't be able to catch up with you."

Chang Yue: "..."

"No," Zhi Qiyuan breathed out twice into his palms, raised his hands to his ears like cat's claws, and said in a penetrating tone, "I want to try too, I'm here..."

Chang Yue was startled, subconsciously fell behind him.

Su Yan wrapped his arms around his waist with another hand, raised his left hand, quickly and accurately clasped Zhi Qiyuan's wrist, and squeezed hard.

"Don't be afraid."

"Hey, hey, I'm so strong, it hurts..." After Zhi Qiyuan yelled, Su Yan immediately let go.

The "Don't be afraid" sounded like a whisper in a dream. Only Chang Yue who was closest to Su Yan heard it. Standing up, he immediately urged: "Class is over, go back quickly."

Next is Open Week.

From Tuesday, there are four or five fresh-faced teachers behind the classroom of Class 774. They sit neatly and listen very carefully.

Zhi Qiyuan adhered to the determination not to embarrass the school, and for the first time did not engage in petty tricks in class.He listened carefully to the class and raised his hand to answer questions.

On Thursday, there was no teacher in the class to attend the class, and Chang Yue breathed a sigh of relief.

It rained for more than an hour on Friday afternoon, the whole world was humid, the light was dark and gray, Chang Yue was really lazy, he didn’t go to the cafeteria to eat, he cleared the table, put on his hat, and put his hands in his pockets Started to be in a daze.

There were still chattering and fighting noises in twos and threes in the classroom, which was not as noisy as in summer, and was as low and quiet as if moistened by winter rain.

It seems that everyone is affectionate.

Chang Yue exhaled, watched the fog in front of him dissipate, exhaled again, dissipated, and when he was about to exhale again, something lightly rubbed his face, it was cool, he rubbed the bump with his hands He turned around and saw Su Yan standing on the table behind him.

"Why do you always use your hands?" What he said didn't sound like an accusation at all.

Su Yan smiled, "Did you not go to eat?"

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