37 Compromise
37 Compromise
"Let's go back first." After a long time, Fang Zhuo came up with such a sentence, and he stood up and walked down the mountain first.
When he was far away, Fang Ning still sat on the stone with his head down, covering his cheek with one hand, and meditating.
After a while, a furious voice sounded, "Fang Ning! You are crazy!" Without looking up, he knew that Fang Zhuo had returned.
"What are you doing back?" Fang Ning raised his head and looked at the forest in the distance.
"Give me a reason," Fang Zhuo almost roared, "Why?"
"You want to come back to live, I'm satisfied..." Before Fang Zhuo finished speaking, Fang Ning interrupted coldly, "You want to come back to live."
"I...you..." Fang Zhuo was arrogant for a while, and then he immediately lit a cigarette proficiently and smoked it fiercely. When the smoke surrounded him, Fang Zhuo suddenly sneered, "Yes, I want to come back. Also I want to stay in a shabby place, and I will accompany you to open some shabby shop when I am full, and go to a ghostly place like an orphanage!"
"Why do you like to go so much?" Fang Zhuo's expression suddenly turned grim, and he discarded all the good memories between the two, adding slander, "Did you fall in love with someone? The young man in charge of the meal?"
"Hehe." Fang Ning lowered his head, covered his face under the shade of a tree, his body trembling with laughter, "Are you so tired of being with me?" He raised his head, his eyes flushed, "Then Why do you... want to be with me?"
There was a little sadness in his eyes, seeing Fang Zhuo was speechless for a while, then he lowered his head and laughed again.
Fang Zhuo was terrified by his laughter, and suddenly recalled what he said just now, his eyes became complicated, and the aura around him dropped.
Then he tried to calm his tone, "Isn't it good for the children in the orphanage? We live so close, you can see the children every day, but we don't need to..."
Fang Ning stood up suddenly, and walked past him expressionlessly. The fleeting feeling of passing by made Fang Zhuo really panic.
"Fang Ning!" He couldn't help but shouted, trying to persuade him to stay with force.
The thin figure standing in front of him stood still, "What?" With a cold tone and cold eyes, without a trace of emotion.
He immediately stepped forward and hugged him, "Fang Ning, you said not to have a cold war with me, you said..." He didn't realize that there was already a slight tremor in his tone.
"Yes, I will not have a cold war with you." Fang Ning paused, "I said so." After speaking, suddenly Fang Ning desperately took off the ring on his hand, and Fang Zhuo immediately stopped in a panic when he saw this.
"Fang Ning, what are you doing?!" His pupils shrank suddenly, and the ring slipped off his bony finger easily. Although there was a pause when it passed the joint, the smoothness of the process left everyone who was watching stunned. , even the person who was about to throw the ring was sluggish.It turns out that a relationship can really slip away so easily.
Fang Ning didn't hesitate at all. When hatred comes to mind, he always can't take into account so many consequences.
Before it was too late, Fang Zhuo grabbed his hands viciously and firmly fixed him in mid-air. The ring was still in his hand, reflecting the dazzling light in the sun.
Fang Zhuo's roar was still in his ears, "Fang Ning, you are crazy!"
He was in a daze, the ring in his hand dropped and fell into the dust, only splashing little soil stains, and then rolled carefully for a few weeks, not moving, not even making a sound.
No, the small one can't even hear the sound.
He could only hear Fang Zhuo's roar, and Fang Zhuo's almost distorted face, which he hadn't seen for a long time...
Immediately afterwards, Fang Zhuo squatted down like a distressed bereaved dog to look for the ring, and then carefully brought the ring back to his finger.
That look reminded him of the old days, the way Fang Zhuo carefully held the delicious food in front of him, that was the most embarrassing time for him.
But even so, still, still protecting him...
Tears, like a kite with a broken string, flowed continuously, and he couldn't suppress his emotions.
Fang Zhuo immediately became at a loss. He hugged him tightly, and he became incoherent because of his nervousness, "Fang Ning, I love you, Fang Ning, don't cry, Fang Ning..."
Fang Zhuo kept calling his name, expressing his affection in the most insignificant way.
……
In the end, Fang Zhuo couldn't bring himself to take him back directly. Although with his ability, there were countless ways to force him to compromise, he still didn't do it in the end.
He could imagine what kind of life he would live after returning, and how the relationship between the two would become rigid.
He snuffed out the cigarette butt in his hand, then touched the empty cigarette case, and smashed the case on the ground as if venting his anger.
He walked out of the gate and spoke to the village head of the main house, and went out to buy cigarettes.
He looked up at the sky, the sky below was blue and beautiful, and the air was sober.He brushed his hair back, breathed a sigh of relief, and walked quickly to the small shop.
On the way back, he smoked slowly.He didn't want to be relatively silent in the same room with Fang Ning, it would be too depressing.
He would rather he yell at him, beat him and scold him, and then he can sit down and talk about it after venting.
I also blamed myself for being too impulsive and couldn't help but say something to make him feel uncomfortable when encountering things, but I couldn't bear him to feel uncomfortable.What a pervert!
They went back to the house as usual, and the village chief's family cooked a table of delicious food for them. At the dinner table, Fang Ning said a few words, and his expression changed a lot.After returning to the house, he returned to his original state, simply fell asleep after washing up, and ignored Fang Zhuo.
Fang Zhuo took off his clothes, lifted the quilt, put his whole body on it, and hugged the thin body tightly.
"Fang Ning, Fang Ning, Fang Ning..." Fang Zhuo's almost whispering voice sounded close to his ears.
But Fang Ning just felt annoyed, and quickly covered his ears, but this action caused Fang Zhuo to chuckle in a low voice, and he tightened his embrace even tighter, "Fang Ning, don't be angry, okay?", Fang Zhuo softened his words.
After a long silence, Fang Zhuo waited. As he expected, Fang Ning's voice was hoarse, "I want to adopt a child."
The veins on Fang Zhuo's forehead burst out.
"I want to have a baby."
The atmosphere in the room suddenly cooled down.
"I want to give him a... childhood with memories...."
"I want to see him thrive, and I want to hear him call me dad."
"..."
There was a long silence, Fang Zhuo didn't answer, Fang Ning seemed to be asleep, and there was the sound of light breathing in the room.
Fang Zhuo's whole body seemed to be cold, and his arms seemed to lose the slightest heat and touch.
He got up from the bed, lit the cigarette with trembling hands, took a deep breath, and tried to calm himself down.
He began to think about why he objected to his adoption.
The whole night, he smoked all night, the cigarette butts in the ashtray had already been full, spilled on the table, there were ash everywhere.
He caressed the ring on his finger carefully, unable to move his eyes away.
He was afraid, so Fang Ning could only belong to him alone.
Fang Ning, who was lying on the bed, slowly opened his eyes. His eyes were sleepy. It was still five in the morning. When he woke up, he was surprised.She has always been used to waking up in Fang Zhuo's arms, but the bed next to her is empty today.
He smelled the strong smell of smoke, sat up, only to see the man who was supposed to embrace him was sitting at the table smoking cigarettes one after another, the ashtray was full of cigarette butts, his eyes Has a light cyan color.
Fang Ning understood instantly. Facing the man's probing gaze, he averted his gaze and put on his clothes silently.
There was a knock on the door, "Get up! Get up!" A shrill female voice sounded, followed by another voice at the door, "What's your name! What's your name so early, he's still sleeping!"
Then I heard the sound of crutches hitting the ground.The woman seemed to be full again, and the two walked away chattering.
The people in the room didn't move at all, they were deadlocked with each other.
This state of stalemate lasted for two days, and neither of them mentioned that matter again.Fang Ning just watched Xie Nan twice from a distance, and then walked away immediately. Fang Zhuo who was following behind him quietly witnessed all this, stomped out the cigarette butt, and walked away quickly before Fang Ning walked in. .
At night, the two people, who were very harmonious in front of people, returned to the house and continued to do their own things, without eye contact or verbal communication.
Fang Ning originally thought that Fang Zhuo would attack him fiercely like before, and after the end, he could use all kinds of high-sounding reasons to prevaricate, and then take him back.
Although there will be a cold war for a while, maybe after a long time, the two will reconcile.
But he didn't, just sat there not knowing what to think.
The village chief's family was troubled for a few days. Although the village chief strongly invited him to live here, he was too embarrassed to continue to live here. It would be better to find another place to live. Fang Ning thought this way and planned several hotels at the foot of the mountain.
Just as he was about to undress and go to bed, Fang Zhuo suddenly said, "Xie Nan."
"The child's name is Xie Nan?"
Fang Ning froze on the spot, and stopped unbuttoning his hand.
"If I disagree, what will you do?" Fang Zhuo tried to sound calmer.
Fang Ning's back was a little bent, he smiled wryly, and after a while, his voice trembled, "Fang Zhuo, you know, I can't live without you."
Fang Zhuo's breath stopped suddenly when he heard these words, and in the next second he flew onto the bed like a beast, and pressed him down suddenly, the sound of breathing became rough, and then he bit hard on the bed. His slightly pale lips bit him open, the smell of blood spread in the mouths of the two of them, he rudely inserted his tongue into his soft mouth to stir, plundered his air, and blended with him .
As if infected by Fang Zhuo's emotions, Fang Ning also began to respond violently.
After the kiss was over, Fang Zhuo gasped, "You seduced me, Fang Ning, and you asked for it on your own initiative. Don't regret it."
After finishing speaking, Fang Zhuo stabbed hard into the part that hadn't been lubricated at all. The pain was like tearing, and Fang Ning screamed heart-piercingly.
Fang Zhuo started to twitch without the slightest pause.
……
In the morning, Fang Zhuo lifted the quilt, pulled down his trousers, took out an ointment and carefully applied it to a certain place that was overused yesterday.
This ointment was bought at a clinic in the town after he ran down the mountain desperately after finishing it last night.This place is remote, and it was already early morning when he came back, so he immediately washed his body and applied ointment.
After Fang Ning woke up, Fang Zhuo carefully blew cold mouthfuls of steaming porridge and fed it to the man on the bed.
It is also rare for a man to let go of his reserve and indifference, and open his bloodless thin lips to accept it.
After eating, Fang Zhuo kissed his forehead, "Good morning kiss."
"En." Fang Ning nodded bloodlessly.
"Today is a day off," Fang Zhuo paused, facing Fang Ning's expectant eyes, he avoided looking at each other, and was about to say that he would go to see Xie Nan tomorrow, but when it came to his lips, he said, " Let's talk tomorrow."
Even so, Fang Ning's pale face was still full of joy, and Fang Zhuo heard his soft reply.
He pretended to be calm and went out with the bowl, and then lit a cigarette. Recently, his smoking posture has become more and more chic...
At night, he returned to the intimacy of three days ago. Looking at the sleeping face of the man in his arms, he couldn't help stroking his hair with his chin. He had to say, Fang Ning said that I can't do without you to a great extent. Pleased him.
These days he has been struggling repeatedly, this is not like him, in fact, he can easily take people back, and after a period of cold war, he will compromise.
However, he hesitated, living here and not going back immediately is the best proof.
He smiled and kissed his hair softly.
……
Early the next morning, the two dressed neatly and came to Xie Nan's home.
Xie Nan was sitting by the bed carefully arranging the snacks in the big box that Fang Ning gave him. He had to do this every day for the past few days.
Seeing Fang Ning and Fang Zhuo, he was so frightened that he immediately covered the quilt on the bed to cover the big box.
However, even so, Fang Ning still saw it, and he couldn't help but chuckle.
Fang Zhuo felt quite uncomfortable, stepped forward to bite Fang Ning's open lips fiercely, and rubbed them back and forth, until his lips turned blood red, he was willing to let go, and then looked at Fang Ning provocatively. The boy who sits sluggishly on the bed...
Fang Ning looked helplessly at the man beside him, are you so interesting?Get angry with a child.Faced with Fang Ning's undisguised disdain, Fang Zhuo's ears turned red...
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