please let go

Chapter 66

The next morning, Jiang Chen took the initiative to make a video call to He Chuan after breakfast, but was hung up again.

Jiang Chen sent a question mark over.

[He Chuan]: I'm out shopping for vegetables, and I'll call you when I get home.

He suspected that He Chuan didn't want to do his homework, and began to question whether it was true or false.

[He Chuan]: ... Ask He Yi if you don't believe me.

After getting He Yi's answer, Jiang Chen was convinced, and at the same time he was blamed by his boyfriend.

[He Chuan]: What about trust?

[Jiang Chen]: I believe in you!But you asked me to ask He Yi, can I not listen to my boyfriend?

[He Chuan]: The mouth can really speak.

[Jiang Chen]: I learned from you.

It's not because of his eloquence, but because he has a strong desire to survive.

A message box popped up on the top of the phone, He Yi said he wanted to do a "small interview", Jiang Chen was a little confused, but he agreed.

Jiang Chen answered the Q｜Q call, and just put the phone to his ear, when he heard a loud voice saying hello: "Brother Jiang!"

His eardrum was punctured severely, he hurriedly removed the phone and lowered the volume, "Well, what do you want to ask?"

"Ahem, don't talk to my brother."

"Is He Chuan not around?"

"My brother went to the town to buy vegetables, and I was in my mother's store." He Yi started to gossip, "Brother Jiang, you and my brother... who is chasing whom?"

The girl's unconcealable joy can be heard just from the voice, Jiang Chen said with a smile: "I had a crush on him first, but he first proposed to have a relationship with me."

"My God! My brother took the initiative to chase you?! Wow! Wow!" He Yilian said "Wow" twice to express her disbelief, "Then what did he say then?"

"Just...ask me if I'm in love..."

"Wow~ so straightforward~ is my brother's style. But last year on my birthday, I did see you secretly looking at my brother while making a wish, hehe..." He Yi continued to ask: "Then... have you two kissed? Was it also my brother who took the initiative?"

"The first time I took the initiative..." Mentioning this Jiang Chen was a little hard to say, "The next four times...he took the initiative...and then I didn't pay attention..."

"Wow~ Ouch~ Brother Jiang remembers so clearly~"

Jiang Chen: "..." He didn't want to either!But four times that day, it's hard to forget! !

"Then, do you two fight? Who usually wins?"

"We didn't quarrel, the only quarrel was because he didn't study hard." Jiang Chen recalled that at first he planned to hang out with He Chuan for three days, but he suffered from insomnia on the first night of separation.

"and after?"

"Later?" Jiang Chen chuckled, "He still has to learn."

"Brother Jiang Niu, I was worried that my brother would bully you at first, but it seems that I was thinking too much. If I make my brother angry in the future, I will run to you!"

"Haha good." Jiang Chen asked her back: "How does He Chuan usually treat you?"

"It's okay~ My brother just doesn't like to express love with words, but he is very good to me."

"Don't like expressing it in words?" Jiang Chen questioned.

"You're different. I'm his sister, and I won't run away. He must be afraid that you would run away, so he tried every means to coax you!"

Jiang Chen smiled lowly and said to himself, "I won't run away either."

"My brother's words are definitely not as good as his words and deeds. I guarantee this is true." He Yi added: "Anyway, I think you and my brother are quite good together." She murmured again: "Only you Can bear his temper."

"Your brother... has a good temper, really..."

There was an exaggerated long sigh from the phone, "Oh—maybe this is differential treatment... You are the only one in the world who can experience my brother's kindness~spleen~qi~"

Jiang Chen chuckled, "Is there anything else you want to ask?"

"It's gone now haha!"

"Well, then hang up first." Jiang Chen was just about to press the red button when he heard He Yi calling him in a hurry: "Brother Jiang!"

"Ok?"

"About the note..."

"It's okay, we've already settled it." Mentioning this, Jiang Chen still felt uncomfortable.

In fact, this problem has never been resolved, and he and He Chuan are unwilling to bring it up again. No one knows how serious the explosion will be caused by the other end of the fuse.

"Brother Jiang, my brother really really really likes you, so don't break up with him!"

"Well, it won't."

"you swear!"

"..." Jiang Chen didn't understand why she was obsessed with this, "I swear, even if He Chuan proposes to break up with me, I will still stalk him."

"Haha, my brother is reluctant to mention breaking up..."

"So what you're worried about won't happen."

"Yeah!! Goodbye then!"

"Bye-Bye."

Jiang Chen waited for He Chuan to make a video call when he got home. The two of them were immersed in writing questions in front of the screen of the mobile phone, supervising each other's study. When they raised their eyes slightly, they happened to see He Chuan staring at him, "You are sick! What are you looking at me for? Look question!"

He Chuan turned the gel pen in his hand, put his hand on his chin, and smiled at the screen, "The question is not as good-looking as my boyfriend."

Jiang Chen was almost fascinated by this laugh, and coughed softly, "Go and tell the marking teacher! See how many points the teacher gives you."

"The marking teacher gave me a score of zero, and I will give you a score of [-] for your appearance." He Chuan stretched his arms and stretched his waist, "Tsk, I can't kiss without you beside me, I have no motivation."

"...Let's talk when we go back to school!" Jiang Chen frowned slightly and buried himself in his review, ignoring the person opposite him.

The winter vacation of the third year of high school was short, and after two weeks, I returned to the dormitory with my luggage.

After Jiang Chen closed the door, He Chuan arrived at the iron gate.

"I'm stupid..." He had no way to retreat, raised his chin and asked with a smile, "It's so early?"

"Come for a reward."

Jiang Chen responded with a smile.

They haven't kissed for more than ten days, and it took them a long time to let go of each other this time.Jiang Chen was a little hypoxic, panting slightly with a blushing face: "I'm stupid, you... lung capacity..."

"Come on, breathe louder." He Chuan bent his index finger and hooked Jiang Chen's chin.

"Get out!" Jiang Chen smiled and patted his hand.

"What? Pull up your pants and don't recognize anyone?" He Chuan continued to tease: "You didn't act like this when you were taking care of your little brother to me!"

After Jiang Chen gagged him to prove it, "I will recognize you whether I wear pants or not."

"Okay——" He Chuan changed his usual tone, lazily and dotingly, so sweet that it was bubbling.

Jiang Chen was stunned. On the way to the classroom, the word "good" kept circulating in his mind, and he almost couldn't help but want He Chuan to say it again.

Going to the classroom for evening self-study, Jiang Chen saw a calm Shen Chong on the seat, and went to talk to him: "Have you finished your winter vacation homework?"

Shen Chong smiled: "I didn't write the math, so let me copy it?"

Shen Chong has lost a lot of weight, no matter how thick the clothes are, he doesn't look bloated. Everyone asked him what he did, and only Jiang Chen knew the reason.

Jiang Chen took out a math book and a set of wrong questions from his bag and handed them to him, a little worried: "Tell me if you have anything."

"Ah."

Shen Chong is someone who doesn't want to show his negative emotions. If Jiang Chen and Zhao Jiali hadn't got in touch, Shen Chong wouldn't have told him about those things.

"Shen Chong, have you smoked? You're so thin?" The deskmate came in and was a little shocked to see Shen Chong's changes.

"No." Shen Chong continued to copy his homework.

The intense academic work in the second semester of the third year of high school did not allow much time for people to vent their emotions. Shen Chong turned his sadness into motivation and studied desperately. After that, he never copied Jiang Chen's homework.

After the results of the monthly exam in April, Jiang Chen was in a mixed mood, as if no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't reach the height he wanted.

Some people are really not material for learning. He memorized the knowledge point of "democratic centralism" five times, but he would still forget it when answering political questions.

No matter how many questions about derivatives, he still can't do the second question of the No. 12 big question on the math test paper, and the first three questions of Chinese. He can only try his luck, and his cultural knowledge is still a mess in his mind.

The frightening thing is often not that there is a big gap from the dream, but that it is so close at hand, and the difference becomes an insurmountable gap.

As the day of the college entrance examination approached, the repeated weekly exams put him in a highly tense state, and he became more and more troubled to sleep and eat. He spent all day brushing questions and memorizing knowledge points.

Get up at 05:30 in the morning to memorize vocabulary and knowledge points, stay in the seat to correct mistakes except for going to the toilet during class, it takes no more than 15 minutes from school to the cafeteria to eat, use the lunch break to keep brushing the questions, stay up late until the end of the day One or two points are to consolidate knowledge.

He Chuan stayed with him all the time, and tried to persuade him to calm down many times, but to no avail.

At two o'clock in the morning, Jiang Chen was still sitting at the desk writing math problems.

He Chuan was so sleepy that he fell asleep lying on the table. When he woke up again, he checked the time.

Sitting across from him, Jiang Chen kept writing mathematical formulas on the draft, and then erased them over and over again.

"Jiang Chen, it's three o'clock, go to bed."

"I can't sleep." Jiang Chen shook his head, "I read the analysis of this question last week, and I forgot how to do it again."

"How many hours do you sleep a day? You go to bed at three o'clock now, and you wake up at five o'clock. You really don't get enough sleep." He Chuan pressed Jiang Chen's hand to prevent him from writing.

"There are still more than 30 days, and I still have so many things I don't know...I'm not a genius! Every time I'm so old..." Jiang Chen threw his pen on the table, a little depressed.

The tip of the pen hit the wooden table heavily, bounced into the air and drew a parabola, and finally landed on the ground with a crisp "click".

Jiang Chen sighed helplessly, "I think I've learned enough, I can't improve..."

"Jiang Chen, why do you think there is a college entrance examination?" He Chuan continued without waiting for Jiang Chen's answer, "For the country and society, it is to select talents, and for us, it is to improve ourselves and sharpen our will."

"I can't improve, and my will has been worn out..." The more he brushed the questions, the more uneasy he became. He was reviewing every day, and every day he found that there were still questions that he hadn't mastered.

Jiang Chen rubbed his face with his palms, took a deep breath, "I can't study anymore, really, my score is not enough, I get nervous in the college entrance examination, and if I fail again, I will..."

He bowed his head and stopped talking.

"You're just stressed out."

"I can't relieve this pressure. Really, I have dreams every day. I dream that I have to hand in the paper before I finish the questions. I dream that I didn't write or make a mistake on the answer sheet. I dream that I wrote the big questions in the wrong place..." Jiang Chen was woken up by fright every morning. The importance of the college entrance examination was deeply ingrained in his mind, so that his daily dreams were not the same fault. Now he even dreads falling asleep.

"You need not only to check for omissions and make up for vacancies, but also to adjust your mentality. Dreams are fake, but your hard work is real. Your dreams are only to remind you not to make mistakes on the day of the college entrance examination." He Chuan walked up to Jiang Chen, "You Did you miss the answer sheet? You are so careful, never. Have you ever run out of time to answer the questions? You haven’t, have you?”

"Instead of worrying about things that won't happen, keep living in the moment."

Jiang Chen still didn't look up, and let out a long sigh, "I have done so many questions in the daily quiz, weekly exams, and monthly exams, and I still can't master the questions I don't know. I just jumped in..." "He Chuan, I'm afraid my three years have been wasted..."

"Jiang Chen, it won't be in vain. You have learned far more than you thought in three years, but you just didn't realize it. Even if it's difficult to get a point now, it's not impossible. This is the final exam-oriented education , hold on."

"You know the Wallenda effect? ​​That tightrope walker always warned himself not to fail, and in the end he stumbled and died. Jiang Chen, you have to think that you will succeed."

"Didn't you persuade me in the same way before? How do you know if you don't try? Don't rush to deny yourself." He Chuan bent down to pick up the pen on the ground, put it gently on the table, and put the other hand on Jiang Chen. "I believe in you."

"I..." Jiang Chen let go of his hands covering his face, looked up at He Chuan, and heard him say, "In my eyes, you are really outstanding."

He Chuan rubbed his head, "Jiang Chen, you will always be my number one."

Jiang Chen put his arms around He Chuan's waist, and pressed his face against his waist, "Why have you never been anxious?"

"I have a good mentality and do what I can, and I don't have any volunteers at the moment."

"no target?"

"Do you count on the goal?" He Chuan put one hand on the back of Jiang Chen's neck, touched Jiang Chen's hair with the other, and continued, "I also learned this thing about hard work from you."

"I want to be admitted to N University."

"Then you will definitely go to N University."

"What about you?"

"Just stay closer to you."

"No matter where you take the exam, your wish has already come true." Jiang Chen thought about it, even if the two were separated, he was willing to cross everything to find He Chuan.

In fact, it doesn't matter if you have a long-distance relationship, whether it is tens of kilometers, hundreds or thousands of kilometers, they have spent countless days and nights, and their hearts have long been close together.

"You adjust your schedule first, don't wait until the college entrance examination breaks your body."

"Well, I..." Jiang Chen let go of his hand, and was just about to say that he was still in good spirits, when He Chuan interrupted: "I'll sleep with you, and I'll wake you up early tomorrow."

"Um……"

The two were sleeping on the same bed facing each other. Jiang Chen was still a little uneasy. He was patted by warm palms on his back and heard a soft comfort: "Sleep. We will continue studying tomorrow."

"Yes." Jiang Chen replied sullenly.

How come it seems to be coaxing a child.

He Chuan moved closer and kissed him on the forehead, "Good night."

Jiang Chen obediently closed his eyes and tried to fall asleep. He was really tired, both physically and mentally.

For the rest of the day, He Chuan stayed with Jiang Chen to study, constantly enlightening him, and stopped him in time when he found out that he was doing high-intensity review training until the end of the college entrance examination.

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Little He Gentle is dead