Moon Huaying in the Deep Forest

Chapter 12

After a long time, my tears gradually stopped.After I calmed down, I felt so ashamed and embarrassed that I wanted to go underground.

We finally figured out the question. When I was about to hang up the phone, I hesitated, but I still told Su Shuo about my dreams.

Because of these dreams, I have a bad day.I was worried: "Is there any hint of these dreams?"

He said: "Some words may be a bit out of line for me, and it is not appropriate."

Of course I don't think there's anything inappropriate: "No, tell me, what's inappropriate, aren't you my family?"

"You always think about things, and you put yourself under so much pressure and have strange dreams. Is it because you don't feel safe in your relationship? That senior of yours—" He paused: "You That senior, he has gotten along with you a lot, but he can't see your fragility, right? Does he understand you? Does he treat you well? Are you happy? Are you happy?"

He went on to say: "Xia Ying, don't torture yourself, don't be unhappy, buddy, I don't have any other wishes, I just want you to be happy, happy, really."

I didn't know how to answer the question he asked, so I had to say, "I want you to be happy too. I really do."

He smiled slightly and said, "Okay, good night."

I hung up the phone, it was already late at night.I took a light step to wash up, and after I changed my clothes and tucked into the quilt, I saw the message from Su Shuo just now.

"You are with him, as long as you are happy, I will bless you. But think about it, during this time, have you ever felt particularly lonely? Think again, do you feel lonely when you are with him?" In the future, will you be happier when you are single? Be happy, Xia Ying, and treat yourself better. I just thought, if only we were in the same high school, at least I can take care of you."

After reading this, my nose was sore again, and I sent him a mocking expression and asked him, "Who takes care of whom?"

He scolded back: "Get out of here! Go to sleep!"

I thought about it, and finally said to him very seriously: "Actually, most of the time, I think I am quite happy, really. Good night."

"The other party is typing" appears above the chat box.After a long time, he sent a message with only one sentence: "There must be happiness. If he really didn't treat you well at all, you wouldn't be with him in the first place. As outsiders, we can't see through it." Many things, like a fish drinking water, knowing how warm it is, love yourself more, good night."

I cried so much that my cheeks still felt hot after I washed my face.But when I climbed into the bed and covered myself with a quilt, I felt that it was very cold tonight.Maybe it's almost winter.

The days when I couldn't meet Lin Wuhua tore my heart, and I gradually became self-contradictory.Sometimes, for the last second, I feel that if I haven't seen him for so long, life is so boring, it's better to separate.In the next second, recalling the past, I felt that he loves me so much, and I love him so much.

I tried to extract some details from the past relationship, expand them, collect them into a book, and keep them in my heart as evidence of our love.But I also found that the more I want to prove that we love each other, the more I will find some incompatibility that I have deliberately ignored from a certain corner.

The next day, my eyelids were really swollen, and when I rubbed them with my hands, I still felt a tingling sensation like a needle prick.My parents asked me what was wrong during breakfast, and I could only lie, saying that my eyelids had been bitten by mosquitoes twice.

Not to mention whether there will be mosquitoes in the north in winter, even if there are, how can it be possible to bite so symmetrically?I know they wouldn't believe such a poor lie, but I can't think of any other reason.

On the way to school, the soles of my shoes seemed to be glued, and it took a long time to move a step.During this time, I thought hard about whether playing truant was possible, and the answer, of course, was no.I can't wait to buy a pair of sunglasses and wear them, but I have to bite the bullet and walk into the class.It is a masterpiece of mosquitoes to bite to death when someone is concerned or curious.

I'm sorry mosquito friends, please take the blame first.Next year, when you bite me, I promise not to scold you!

After crying that time, I gradually sorted out my emotions, no longer belittle myself every day, reflect everywhere, and no longer feel sad because of such and such regrets.I was finally able to devote myself to the sea of ​​questions again, and finally gained the upper hand in the quiz competition with Su Shuo.

However, I still want to see Lin Wuhua very, very, very much, and want to see him again very, very, very much, even if I stand far away.

I still didn't dare to run to the gate of his class to find him, and I really never saw him again.On the contrary, one day, when I packed my schoolbag, I hesitated for a long time, spent a long time choosing, and finally got home ten minutes later than usual. On the way back to the community, I ran into Shen Qiyang, who was carrying a schoolbag. .

We all wore cotton school uniforms and hats, but not enough to recognize each other.Seeing me, he was shocked: "Why are you coming home so late!"

I imitated his tone and asked him, "Why are you coming home so late!"

He waved his hand: "I'm different from you. I walked with Xu Chunyu. His house is not in this direction, so I took a long detour."

This time it was my turn to be shocked: "Would you rather take a detour and go together? Is this an exaggeration?"

Shen Qiyang showed a very disgusted expression: "It's not all Xu Chunyu, who insists on walking with me, if I don't take a detour, he has to go around. It's not safe for him to walk at night by himself. When I think about it, I'd better pull him down." , it’s nothing if I take two steps around.”

When I heard this, I just wanted to curl my lips.Shen Qiyang pretended to be disgusted in front of me, but actually he didn't know what was going on in his heart, maybe he was enjoying it!

I asked him, "Aren't you walking the night walk by yourself and him walking the night walk the same? What's the difference?"

Shen Qiyang looked like a stinky kid, bumped his schoolbag, and hummed confidently: "Hmph, can that be the same? I'm strong!"

After they entered the third year of high school, Shen Qiyang and I didn't see each other a few times.Now that we finally meet each other, we are all a little bit reluctant to say goodbye.The cold wind is not weak, rolling snowflakes, making people's nasal cavity hurt, but we are walking slowly like snails.When we finally moved near the door of the unit, I held my schoolbag and faltered, "How is Lin Wuhua?"

To my surprise, Shen Qiyang did not show the expression of "knowing everything" that he had in the class this time, but frowned slightly and lowered his head to avoid my sight.

"Ham, what else can he do? It's fine. The three of us are fine. Don't worry, just study hard. Later, you'd better...wait later, it will be fine."

There was nothing to talk about, we waved our hands, bid farewell silently, opened the anti-theft door of the unit, and walked in one after the other.

I walked to the door of the house and reached out to open the door.Shen Qiyang grabbed my schoolbag again, looked at me in the dark corridor, hesitant to speak.Finally, he let go of his hand, waved his hand and turned to go upstairs without saying anything.

When I entered the bedroom, I gently put my schoolbag on the bed.What did Shen Qiyang not say?I took out the water glass from my schoolbag and unscrewed the lid, and walked to the kettle, wanting to pour a glass of water to drink.What exactly did Shen Qiyang want to say?I gulped and drank the water, planning to wash an apple later.Shen Qiyang didn't say anything at the end, why?

What Shen Qiyang didn't say must be related to me.So, will it be related to Lin Wuhua?

Inexplicably, I thought of Xu Chunyu again.He is very nice, I haven't seen him for so long, to be honest, I still miss him.So tired in the third year of high school, does he still have flesh on his face?Is the slap to Shen Qiyang still so powerful?

Shen Qiyang...Shen Qiyang, is he still m?

With a shock, I came back to my senses.What were you thinking about just now?

I can't wait to plunge into the quilt.

I was stuck, but I still had to get up and sit down at the desk.What is in my heavy schoolbag?That's the information I spent more than ten minutes carefully selecting!If I go to bed without even looking at it, I would be betraying myself!

You can't betray yourself!

I scratched my hair randomly, plucked my bangs, and rolled up the sleeves of my pajamas, looking like I was about to struggle.It doesn't matter whether you really want to start fighting, no matter what, you have to have enough momentum!

In the middle of the night, when I was about to go to bed, I realized that I only opened the first book of the stack of materials I brought back.

I smacked my lips and stuffed these questions into my schoolbag as they were.Guilty is guilty, I still have to sleep, after all, I have to study early tomorrow morning.It's not too late to wait until the morning self-study.

After a long time, I slowly returned to the fiery state before.During this period of time, Lin Wuhua has not looked for me. I really miss him, but I don't want to look for him for the time being. The two of them competed across the playground.Seeing me like this, Su Shuo didn't worry about these things any more, and only cared about discussing the topic with me every day.Sometimes we hang on with wind oil essence, do the problems until one or two o'clock, go to bed in a hurry and sleep for three or four hours, then get up and go to morning self-study, hold our eyelids for class, and take advantage of the precious 10 minutes after class to catch up on sleep.

A lot has happened this week, and I've had my fair share of ups and downs as a result.From Lin Wuhua's questioning, to strange dreams, to crying on the phone, these things pushed me and made me cross an emotional threshold.

I slowly began to face up to the unresolved issues between us, and learned how to restrain my dependence.Lin Wuhua didn't look for me, so I just focused on my life and study.There are fewer things to distract me, and I feel that even memorizing words is more efficient than before.At the same time, my grades slowly climbed back. Although it was far from top-notch, at least I didn't make my family and teachers angry again.

Through the screen, Su Shuo couldn't see my real state, but she could more or less sense my grades and chat tone.One day in the middle of the night, he sent me a message, saying: "Let's talk about it first. If there is any conflict between you and your senior in the future, don't affect your study anymore. The later the more important, really, Brother, I won’t lie to you, if you quarrel again in the future, don’t be too sad, you still have to study. If it doesn’t work, you can do the questions while crying, the most important thing is to study.”