Did he confess today?

Chapter 55

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After Gu Yuan left the examination room, he finally felt able to catch his breath.

He walked fast, and every examination room was full of students who were still writing hard—when everyone took the Chinese test, they often wrote until shortly before the papers were collected.

In contrast, the corridors are empty, and the campus is very quiet.

Gu Yuan's condition has gotten worse in the past ten days. Although he usually sits in the classroom as usual, he can't read a word at all. Whenever he does a question, his mind will go blank.

He didn't know why it happened or how to get better.

The tighter the time left, the more anxious he became. At night, he often lay motionless on the bed, opening his eyes until dawn.

Then, just now, Gu Yuan felt that he might have run out of options.

He kept panicking, enduring the sense of frequent death, suffocation and nausea again and again, and endured it until Chi Yu finished writing the last word.

Gu Yuan didn't know where he was now, he just felt extremely tired, leaning on the railing and looking at the blue sky and white clouds outside, the sun was so strong that he couldn't keep his eyes open.

"Gu Yuan!" His most familiar voice came from behind.

Gu Yuan turned his head, the wind shook his white shirt, light and shadow floated on his face, he blinked slowly, but still couldn't help laughing: "The exam is over?"

Chi Yu strode over, opened his arms and hugged him.

Gu Yuan's body stiffened for a moment, and he lowered his eyes, realizing that he really worried Chi Yu.

"I'm fine." Gu Yuan said, "Maybe I'm just...a little tired recently."

"Why." Chi Yu hugged him a little tighter, and put his lips on his shoulder, "You obviously have something to do, but I'm here, but you didn't say a word."

"I'll be fine." Gu Yuan said softly to him, "At most a week off, I'll..."

Chi Yu raised his head, with a thin layer of tears accumulated in his eyes, Gu Yuan didn't know why, but he couldn't speak anymore, and his eyes became hot, and his vision became a little bit blurred.

He has not shed a tear once in the past month, and he has never given up trying to find a way to solve, suppress, and overcome by himself.

But when he found that Chi Yu was aware of all his pain and panic, Gu Yuan suddenly couldn't control himself.

The rope that tightly strangled him and was about to let go of his suffocation, he seemed to have finally regained his normal emotions, and tears fell down patter.

Chi Yu kept wiping his tears with his hand. It was the first time he saw Gu Yuan like this since he was a child, and his heart was so painful that it was almost torn apart.

In the end, he pulled Gu Yuan into his arms again and hugged him tightly. Gu Yuan trembled, and his big hands tightly grabbed the shirt fabric behind Chi Yu, making a very low whimper.

It was approaching dusk, and the math test in the afternoon was not over yet.

Gu Yuan sat quietly on the chair in the teacher's office, looking at the whirring air outlet of the vertical air conditioner, his eyes were a little dry.

The sound of high-heeled footsteps hurriedly approached, the door of the office was pushed open, and Gu Ma hurried in.

When she saw her son's normal expression, she breathed a sigh of relief: "You scared me to death!"

"Sorry." Gu Yuan stood up, not knowing what to say at this moment.

Because Gu Yuan handed in a blank paper in the first class, he gave up the next three exams directly, and even proposed to leave school for a week of rest, which naturally alarmed Wan Dongfang.

He was worried about the psychological state of the students and did not dare to let him leave school alone, so he could only notify the parents.

Gu Yuan fully understood Wan Dongfang's approach, so he sat patiently in the office and waited for his mother to pick him up, as if he had returned to kindergarten in a trance.

"What happened?" Gu Ma asked with concern.

Gu Yuan habitually wanted to say "I'm fine", but remembering Chi Yu's warning, he still told the truth: "I can't do the questions anymore, Mom."

When Gu Ma heard this sentence, the expression on her face was very blank, as if she heard a foreign language that she didn't know the meaning at all.

This was the first time Gu Yuan told her that he couldn't do something.

In her eyes, her child is omnipotent, and he is her greatest pride.

"I need to take a break." Gu Yuan continued.

"You..." Gu Ma still didn't fully understand, and asked belatedly, "Are you sick?"

"Maybe." Gu Yuan smiled, still with the look of not taking it seriously, "Just take a break, don't worry too much, and don't tell my dad for now, is that okay?"

At this moment, Wan Dongfang opened the door and walked in. He sent Gu Yuan to do some small things, and stayed to chat with Gu Ma.

Gu Yuan then went out and went downstairs.

He didn't want to stay in the corridor, lest the classmates who came out after the exam later ask him something.

Downstairs in the third grade, Chi Yu was standing in the sun waiting for him with a bottle of water in his hand.

This person was unwilling to go to the exam, so Gu Yuan took a lot of effort to squeeze him into the exam room, but he handed in the papers ahead of time and came out to accompany him.

Gu Yuan looked at him, angry and helpless, but at the same time he was wrapped in a huge sense of security.

"I'll accompany you home." Chi Yu said.

"My mother came to pick me up, she's upstairs." Gu Yuan said.

Chi Yu was stunned for a moment, and asked, "What did she say?"

"She was very surprised and couldn't understand why I did this." Gu Yuan wrote lightly, "However, I can't understand myself."

Chi Yu came over, reached out and straightened Gu Yuan's forehead hair, and said, "Don't think about it, take a good rest, I will always be with you."

Gu Yuan nodded, turned his face and gently rubbed Chi Yu's hand, with a smile still in his eyes.

His appearance made Chi Yu feel distressed again, if he wasn't worried that Gu Ma would come down at any time, he would really like to reach out to hug Gu Yuan again.

They talked in a low voice for a while, and after a while Gu Ma really came down, looking at Gu Yuan with worry in her eyes, and when she saw Chi Yu, she covered up this worry again.

"Xiaochi seems to have grown taller again." Gu's mother smiled, "How is your mother recently?"

"Very good, auntie." Chi Yu said.

"That's good. When you have time, you often come to our house as guests. There are so many people." After Gu Ma finished speaking, she added: "Yuan Yuan also really wants to play with you."

"Okay." Chi Yu agreed, and said, "Auntie, I'm going home too, can I take your ride?"

Gu Ma frowned slightly, and then said, "Of course."

The three of them walked towards the school gate together, this time it was Gu Ma who came alone, so they had to take a taxi back.

Gu's mother was talking to the two children along the way, and when they arrived at Di'er, they separated in front of their respective houses.

Gu Yuan kept following Chi Yu with his eyes, Chi Yu waved his hand at him, his eyes told him that we would meet again at night, Gu Yuan felt a little relieved.

Then he followed Gu Ma into the house.

Today is a working day, Dad Gu is at six o'clock, and he is not home yet.

After Gu Ma closed the door, she sighed deeply, looked at Gu Yuan, her worry returned to her face: "How long have you been in this situation, why didn't you tell Mom earlier?"

"I don't know how to say it." Gu Yuan said.

"It's okay. Fortunately, I found out early." Gu Ma comforted, "Let's not tell your father yet. I will ask for leave tomorrow and go to the big hospital with you."

Gu Yuan was silent for a while, and then responded with a soft "hmm".

"Don't worry, it will definitely be fine. This is a small problem. Many students who take the college entrance examination will be like this." Gu Ma continued, "Some people can adjust themselves, and some people can't adjust. It's normal. We Ah, just go and prescribe some sedative and anti-anxiety medicine, it will definitely not affect your exam."

Gu Yuan lowered his eyes, and let out another monotonous "um", he didn't know why he felt sad again.

Because his depression was too obvious, Gu Ma could only keep looking for topics to attract his attention.

"What do you want to eat tonight?" Gu Ma said, "Just eat your favorite food: pearl balls, chicken with soy sauce, fried eggs with tofu, boiled prawns..."

"Mom." Gu Yuan couldn't help interrupting her, and said, "These are not my favorite foods."

"Isn't it?" Gu Ma smiled, "You have changed your taste now? Then what do you say you like the most, we will eat what you like tonight."

"I like it the most..." Gu Yuan said in the middle, he didn't know what happened, but his eyes became hot again.

He could only turn his back and pretend to wash his hands: "Guess."

"How can people guess?" Gu Ma muttered, but she didn't notice any signs of tears in him.

That night, Gu Yuan's family did cook a table of good dishes, but Gu Yuan didn't come out to eat, but lay down in a room with no lights on.

"My son had gastroenteritis at school, and he came back to rest for a week, and the school food is not good." Gu Ma explained to Gu Pa.

"Hmph." Gu's father didn't pay attention to it at all, he ate his rice, and finally said: "I must drink ice water at school."

The door of Gu Yuan's room was closed, and he didn't hear these words. He lay motionless, his eyelids were already very tired and heavy, but he couldn't fall asleep.

Every time he experienced panic symptoms during the day, he was exhausted and unable to sleep.

He took out his phone and saw that Chi Yu had sent him a lot of messages.

Because he had been in school for a long time, his mobile phone was turned on silent, and he did not see the message prompts one after another.

Boyfriend: Have you slept for a while?I just had a good meal

Boyfriend: I came to see you at 10:30, did your parents go upstairs to sleep at that time?

Boyfriend: Yuanyuan, if you are sad, please tell me

Boyfriend: I don't know what I can do for you, but I want to be with you

Boyfriend: Just like you said, as long as you need, I will come to hug you at any time. Gu Yuan's eyes were sore from the bright light of the screen, and he read these words many, many times.

After a long time, he typed, typed and deleted, deleted and re-typed.

Like Yuyu: I really want to see you soon

Like Yuyu: I don't like exams, I don't like physics

Like Yuyu: don't like school, don't like home

I like Yuyu: I don’t like cram schools, interest classes, or competitions

Like Yuyu: Why hasn't anyone found out

I like Yuyu: Why don't I like it, but I don't say it myself? Gu Yuan can't write anymore, the pain for many years made him almost collapsed at this moment, he didn't know what to do.

After he wiped his eyes carelessly, he saw Chi Yu calling him.

Gu Yuan picked it up, swallowed his throat that was a little sore at the moment, "Hello."

"Yuanyuan." Chi Yu's voice came out, and he seemed to be crying too, with a slight nasal sound in his voice.

Gu Yuan wanted to hug him more and more, and already wanted to leave his room directly, jump over the railing, and step on the grass to find him.

"Let's get out of here together." Chi Yu said.

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