Aftermath of breakup

Chapter 59

Pei Yi finally left in a hurry that day.

Although Feng Li was at home all the time, he couldn't go in legitimately, but if he wanted to, he would always have a chance. He was the one who chose to escape first.

But not long after Pei Yi left Luhu Lake, the originally clear sky was suddenly covered with thick clouds, as if it was pressing on the top of his head, as if the rain that had accumulated for a whole spring was about to pour down in an instant.

Pei Yi sat in the taxi on the way back, looking at the howling wind and the swaying vegetation outside, but her heart had long since lost the beating when she came, and fell heavily without any sound.

Pedestrians on the road are moving fast, and they all want to go home before the heavy rain, so as not to be exposed to the rain; cars are blocked on the main road, and the flashing tail lights meander the whole road.

Pei Yi moved his eyes slightly amidst the driver's slightly irritated horn sound, and found that today's date was written on the big screen not far away.

It turned out that in a blink of an eye, it was already the last day of May.

Tomorrow is June, one spring rain and one warm, after this heavy rain, it will be summer.

But Pei Yi thought, he didn't have a summer anymore.

Perhaps starting from the winter at the beginning of the year, from when he met Bian Guangyang, from when he went abroad, from when he quarreled with Duan Xinglian, from when he found out that he was mentally unhealthy, etc., it has already been predicted that he is destined to have no more troubles this year. Summer, until now, is finally coming to an end.

-

When Pei Yi returned home, Pei Xueyuan hadn't come back yet, so he sent a message to inquire, and Pei Xueyuan quickly replied that he was stuck on the road and would arrive home in about half an hour.

Pei Yi got the answer, and then he didn't know what to do with his mobile phone. He stood in the middle of the living room and lost his mind for a while.

In the end, it was the vibration of the phone that pulled him back.

Pei Yi clicked on it reflexively, as if with some last expectation.

It turned out that it was Yin Shuang who was asking about his condition, because he hadn't made any movement for more than two weeks.

Pei Yi's mood fluctuated again and then returned to annihilation. He didn't really want to recover, and he had completely lost confidence in the treatment.

But suddenly, the words of Lin Siwei just now echoed in Pei Yi's mind, and suddenly he remembered something that he didn't take to heart and had been forgotten for a long time.

——Duan Xinglian got an unusually high score of 96 points in the psychological questionnaire back then.

Later, Yin Shuang's business card that he came across in the book by chance was also originally left by Yin Shuang to Duan Xinglian.

It's just that Duan Xinglian happened to have a fever at that time, and everyone thought he was just filling it out in a daze.

But now it seems that is not the case.

Pei Yi moved his fingertips slightly, and sent a final question while replying.

【: Teacher Yin, I only got 4 points in the original questionnaire, so if the score is higher than 90, what will happen? 】

Pei Yi asked straightforwardly, but he didn't have the energy to try and probe, and he already had an answer in his mind, and he just wanted to get a final confirmation.

Naturally, a psychological counselor would not disclose other people's situation at will, but fortunately, Yin Shuang did not have such a case at present, and Pei Yi was only consulting.

So he came back soon.

[Yin Frost: Everyone's situation is different, and specific issues need to be analyzed in detail, but in general, people above 90 are psychologically sensitive, and they will put a lot of emotion into some people, and they also need strong feedback and confirmation. Lack of security, and pain in repeated self-denial, there is a high possibility of emotional dependence. 】

When Pei Yi saw this, the final answer jumped out, and the shaky sparks in his heart were completely extinguished, and the green smoke that had burned out the firewood and could no longer be rekindled, leaving only a handful that had already changed beyond recognition. Dust that will also be blown away in the wind.

【:Got it, thank you. 】

【: I won't come again in the future. I bothered you a few months ago. Goodbye, Mr. Yin. 】

After Pei Yi returned, he threw the phone aside.

At the same time, the torrential rain that had been brewing for a long time outside the window fell with a bang of thunder. The open balcony was drenched in an instant, and the clothes hanger on the clothes drying pole suddenly fell to the ground.

There was a lot of wind and rain, and it was a mess.

-

For the next few days, Pei Yi didn't go out at home until Dr. Meng sent him a message saying that Ms. Pei's surgery plan had been finalized and the operation time could be arranged, and asked Pei Xueyuan how her work was going.

Seeing this, Pei Yi didn't reply yet.

I plan to discuss it after Pei Xueyuan comes back in the evening.

Unexpectedly, in the afternoon, the doorbell suddenly rang at home. Pei Yi was a little surprised, usually no one would look for them, so he walked over to turn on the display screen wearily.

In the end, he suddenly saw Bian Guangyang's face on the screen.

Pei Yi's pupils shrank slightly, and he took two steps back subconsciously.

Then Uncle Zhou's voice came from the microphone.

"Xiao Pei, are you at home? This man said he was your father? He wants to come up, can you let him come up?"

Pei Yi didn't know how Bian Guangyang entered the community, and how he got downstairs to his house.

At this moment, Pei Yi couldn't help but wonder if one day when he opened the door, he would see Bian Guangyang coming out of the elevator again.

"No!" Pei Yi immediately refused, and quickly denied, "He is not."

Bian Guangyang couldn't see him downstairs, but he smiled at the screen at this moment, but Pei Yi only felt cold all over. He heard the other party say: "Xiao Yi, how is your mother? I just want to see her how's it going."

Pei Yi stopped talking and immediately cut off the display.

Then he turned around, sat down on the sofa, and stared straight at the floor.

After a while, he got up suddenly, walked into the elevator and went to the underground parking lot.

It was only 03:30 at this time.

At 05:30, Pei Xueyuan drove back, only to see Pei Yi standing there in her parking space, as if in a daze.

Pei Xueyuan was a little surprised, the headlights flickered, Pei Yi looked at her, and then stepped aside.

After Pei Xueyuan stopped and got out of the car, without waiting for her to ask, she heard Pei Yi take the initiative to explain, in a calm voice: "Come down and throw away the trash, I see you're coming back soon, just wait."

Pei Xueyuan didn't think much about it, she was so happy when she heard the words, she wanted to pinch Pei Yi's face, but at the end she remembered that he was an older child, so she withdrew her hand, only pulled him back, and said with a smile: "I bought you a drunk Fenglou’s sweet and sour pork ribs and shrimp balls, let’s eat them while they’re still hot.”

Pei Yi was pulled by her, but when he turned around, he watched the surrounding situation vigilantly.

It wasn't until he got home that Pei Yi's slightly tense nerves silently relaxed.

And he had already cooked the rice, and Pei Xueyuan also packed a portion of stir-fried vegetables, three dishes for two people, which was considered a harmonious and peaceful daily life.

After the meal, Pei Yi cleared the dining table and saw that Pei Xueyuan was dealing with some mail, so she stood over and waited for a while.

After Pei Xueyuan handled it well, she raised her head and asked, "What's wrong?"

Pei Yi lowered his eyes and said softly: "Mom, how is your handover going?"

Pei Xueyuan paused, then calmed down, and said: "The domestic market and business volume are large, unlike the headquarters, which is less busy, and the handover is also a bit troublesome. Just a few more days, and it will be fine in a few days."

When Pei Yi heard this, his brows twitched, but he suddenly understood what Pei Xueyuan was hesitating about.

The domestic competition is high, she has to hand over, and the business flow is reduced, which may also mean the downgrade of positions and salaries.

However, Pei Xueyuan's journey has not been easy, and she is not a person without ambition. Although these things are not so important in front of health, it is naturally the best to have both.

Suddenly, Pei Yi remembered what Meng Xin said before, Ms. Pei did not want to have surgery in Yancheng.

He realized that Ms. Pei might have planned for a long time, and it was probably exactly what he thought in his heart, but the matter between him and Duan Xinglian made Ms. Pei have to consider other considerations.

Thinking of this, Pei Yi seemed to be making up his mind, he opened his mouth several times, and finally spoke out with difficulty, he asked slowly: "Mom, your company headquarters, I remember it is in country Y, right, there are suitable positions there ?"

Hearing this, Pei Xueyuan felt something, and looked up at Pei Yi.

But she suddenly found that Pei Yi didn't know when he got up, his eyes were always downcast, and his whole body seemed to be covered by a layer of shadow.

Pei Xueyuan's eyes showed distress, and she thought to herself, would breaking up and leaving be the best solution?

But she can't make decisions for Pei Yi, she can only answer his questions, Pei Xueyuan said softly: "Yes."

There happened to be a vacancy for a management position at the headquarters, and that position was vacant but indispensable. She was promoted in the past, and it was very suitable for her current needs. The reason why she hesitated these days was also because of this matter. She wanted to go , but she couldn't let Pei Yi go again.

Thinking of this, Pei Xueyuan became cruel, and just wanted to make another excuse, for example, she couldn't go because of the fierce competition.

But Pei Yi lowered his head and said something that Pei Xueyuan had never imagined before.

"Mom, let's go to the headquarters of country Y, and also go there for surgery." Pei Yi took a breath as he spoke, as if he was in pain, but also as if he was convincing himself, "The environment over there is suitable, and no one bothers you. You can rest in peace."

"I will go with you."

-

After the matter was settled, it was much easier for Pei Xueyuan to handle the work, and Pei Xueyuan personally explained Meng Xin's side.

Pei Yi just had to deal with his own affairs.

In a blink of an eye, it is the weekend, June 6th, which is the day when many college entrance examination candidates are writing hard for the future.

Pei Yi couldn't help thinking that next year today, he should also be sitting in a certain examination room of a certain school, writing and working hard for the P major they promised.

But now it won't work.

Pei Yi only made a phone call on this day.

During the few seconds of waiting for the connection, Pei Yi's heart felt unprecedentedly calm, like a pool of stagnant water, no longer disturbing any waves.

"Hello? Who is it?" A serious and familiar voice came from the other end of the phone.

Pei Yi blinked, and said softly: "Uncle Duan, I'm Pei Yi, can I see Duan Xinglian? I want to tell him something."

-

Pei Yi went to Luhu for the third time, but this time he no longer stayed outside the villa.

Duan Chengsen sent Feng Li away early and greeted the aunt at home, so Pei Yi went all the way to the third floor unimpeded.

He walked to the door of Duan Xinglian's room, and found that the door was closed. He stood there silently for a while, and then raised his hand to knock on the door.

There was no movement from inside the door.

He knocked again.

"I don't eat now, and I don't want to communicate. Mom, don't waste your time talking." Duan Xinglian's words came coldly, as if they had been said countless times.

Pei Yi was stunned for a long time because he hadn't heard Duan Xinglian's voice for a long time.

It's been 26 days now.

Hearing it again, the originally calm thoughts had ripples after all.

Pei Yi took a deep breath and opened his mouth.

"Brother, it's me."

There was a sudden sound inside the door, and within three seconds, the door opened wide, and Duan Xinglian's familiar face appeared before his eyes.

Duan Xinglian didn't open the curtains in the room, only a lamp was turned on on the desk in the distance, the room was dark as a whole, but the corridor was full of sunlight.

Looking at each other, it feels like a world away.

The next moment, Duan Xinglian hugged him tightly in his arms.

Pei Yi hadn't felt such a strong hug for a long time, he raised and lowered his hand, but he finally lifted it up, and hugged Duan Xinglian's waist tightly, as if saying, let's indulge this time for the last time.

Duan Xinglian buried his face in Pei Yi's neck, searched for the familiar aura to his heart's content, and asked in a low voice, "Why are you here?"

Pei Yi didn't answer.

Duan Xinglian didn't ask any further questions, but just hugged him like this for a long time.

At the same time, Pei Yi kissed Duan Xinglian's neck. Duan Xinglian was taken aback for a moment, then immediately pulled him into the room, pressed him against the door, and the kiss fell.

The lips and teeth are jerky, as if they are expressing their longing for the past few days, and the unspeakable worry about gains and losses when they never met.

I don't know how long it took before the kiss gradually softened. Duan Xinglian licked Pei Yi's lips lightly, then fell up to the tip of his nose and then to his eyes.

In the end, Duan Xinglian gently pressed his forehead against Pei Yi's, chuckled lightly, and said with a sigh, "Pei Yi, I miss you."

Pei Yi answered in his heart, me too, but he didn't say it out again.

After a while, Duan Xinglian let go of him, and at the same time, seeing the darkness in the room, he realized something, turned around and walked to the window, pulled open the curtains suddenly, and immediately opened the glass door of the balcony, letting the breeze outside the window And the sun pours in.

The room suddenly became brighter, and Duan Xinglian then went to tidy up the things thrown casually on the sofa, and then tidied up the messy desk, as if he didn't want Pei Yi to see him in any way dejected.

While tidying up, he explained: "I don't do this every day, but today—"

But before he finished speaking, he turned around and saw Pei Yi still standing by the door, looking at him with something that seemed to be sad.

Seeing this, Duan Xinglian was suddenly poked on his fingertip by a compass.

Tiny drops of blood came out of his fingertips immediately, but he didn't feel it, he grabbed it into his palm and wiped it away secretly, then lowered his eyes and continued to pack his books.

It's just that the newly emerged small blood droplets stained the paper again, conspicuous and glaring, a trace that cannot be ignored.

"Brother, I—"

Before Pei Yi could finish speaking, Duan Xinglian heard himself speak hastily and eagerly, interrupting in a panic that was visible to the naked eye: "Sit down for a while, do you want Auntie to bring you some snacks?"

After speaking, he wanted to turn around and go out, as if as long as he didn't share the same space, he could prevent some things he didn't want to see from happening.

But Pei Yi was at the door, blocking his way.

Pei Yi looked at him, but didn't evade any more, as if he no longer obeyed Duan Xinglian's resistance, he looked at him and continued, "I have something to tell you."

When Duan Xinglian heard this, he knew that he could no longer avoid it, and finally fell silent. He stopped all movements in his hands, his jaw clenched tightly.

Pei Yi's fingertips hanging by his side also pinched his palm, as if only in this way could he remain calm.

But before he opened his mouth, Duan Xinglian suddenly raised his eyes, and suddenly mentioned something that seemed irrelevant.

"Do you still remember, last autumn, you said that as long as I surpassed you, you would promise me one thing, and it would count forever."

When Pei Yi heard this, he immediately reacted.

In the last monthly exam, neither of them took part in the ranking, but they were still ranked at the bottom, and Duan Xinglian's initials were at the front, so the ranking was ahead of him, and he was also considered to have surpassed him.

Pei Yi was taken aback when he thought of this, but he couldn't deny the words came from him, so is Duan Xinglian going to make a request to him now?

Pei Yi's heart twisted, and the feeling of difficulty breathing bound him again.

But when he raised his eyes, he met Duan Xinglian's turbulent and sad eyes, and his eyes were also red.

He got it.

-

After Pei Yi returned home, he locked himself in the room.

Pei Xueyuan probably knew what happened and knew that he needed a space of his own, so she sighed and didn't bother after all.

It's just that Pei Yi didn't come out until the next night, and he didn't eat during the period. Pei Xueyuan was really worried, so she knocked on the door.

No one should.

Pei Xueyuan held the handle, but found that the door was unlocked.

As soon as she entered the room, she saw Pei Yi sitting on the bay window, with her head leaning against the wall, her eyes staring at the moon hanging high in the sky. The dim moonlight shining on him was the only dim light in the room.

When Pei Yi heard the movement, he blinked slightly, but when he tilted his head, it seemed as if he had returned to yesterday.

Yesterday, Duan Xinglian did not make a request to him in the end, and then he talked about Pei Xueyuan's condition with Duan Xinglian with difficulty, as if he was trying hard to find a suitable reason between them, and he didn't want to leave many misunderstandings.

But what's more, it's the disappointment that they know each other well but can't express it.

In the end, Pei Yi took the initiative to take out the knife in his heart, and pointed it at Duan Xinglian again.

"Brother, we..."

He never could say it.

But Duan Xinglian remained silent for a long time, as if he didn't want to see him in trouble, and finally walked over to the blade with red eyes.

Those few words stuck to his throat, as if he had to use all his strength to say them, but finally he answered as if he had done it, with a very hoarse and low voice: "Got it."

At this point, the double-edged knife pierced each other, cutting off their unstarted summer, and also cutting off the last connection between them.

At this moment, as long as Pei Yi thinks about it, his whole body still feels like a knife is being cut.

In the past two days, he kept telling himself that apart from talking about family and future, he and Duan Xinglian were inappropriate.

He doesn't know how to love, but Duan Xinglian needs love, and Duan Xinglian has been giving and giving for him before.

But if he doesn't receive the energy, one day, he will use up all of it, right?

And then, what should they do?

So Pei Yi kept thinking, instead of ending in a mess then, it would be better to end it now, and it would be better than torture each other in the future.

"I don't keep my word."

But even thinking this way, Pei Yi still couldn't explain himself, he murmured like this.

Pei Xueyuan came over and found that Pei Yi's face was pale and extremely painful.

Pei Xueyuan didn't know how to comfort him, so she put her hand on Pei Yi's shoulder, hugged him gently, and patted him slowly.

Pei Yi didn't respond, but thought to himself that he didn't keep his word. In the past, he let Duan Xinglian take possession of him. He said he wanted to make Duan Xinglian happy. He said he could promise Duan Xinglian whatever he wanted. Lian has a future...

Let him say everything, but in the end everything is in vain.

I have never seen a more treacherous person than him.

At this moment, Pei Yi seemed to be out of breath suddenly.

Pei Xueyuan looked down, shocked in her heart, and found that Pei Yi had burst into tears at some point.

His tears were silent but uncontrollable, pouring out one after another.

This is also the first time he has shown a fragile appearance in front of Pei Xueyuan, probably because he is really uncomfortable and can't hold it back.

Pei Yi took a deep breath, clasped his heart with his hands, and struggled as if he was trying to survive: "Mom, my heart hurts."

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