69novels Chapter 71 Qu Zao x Chen Ci
Chapter 71 Qu Zao x Chen Ci
Soon, winter is here.
Qu Zao's dormitory is a four-person room, with bed and table layouts.When the weather just turned cold, two of the roommates had girlfriends, and they could meet briefly every night before the dormitory was locked.The other one is a native of City B. He is not a professional, and he doesn't often come to the dormitory.
So for most of the day, Quzao lay on his high bed, huddled under the quilt, sleeping or in a daze.
Sometimes he wakes up in a trance, a little unable to remember that he has gone to college, squinting his eyes and calling "brother" or "husband", coquettishly saying that he is hungry.But almost in the next second, he will wake up, he is far away from M City, and he will never go back to Chen Ci's home.
Shen Ru usually called him at the beginning of the month, asking him if he was adapting to college life, and chatting briefly about Chen Xinji's recovery.After hanging up the phone, a bank transfer message jumped into his mobile phone, which was Shen Ru's living expenses for him.
However, Shen Ru hadn't called him this month, and by the time Qu Zao realized it, it was already mid-November.
He took out his mobile phone from under the pillow, and as soon as he greeted Shen Ru, his mother's call appeared on the screen.Shen Ru's voice mixed with the melodious piano music made him come to a restaurant near the school now. She asked someone to buy a famous brand down jacket and wanted to give it to him.
Shen Ru came to City B to participate in an academic forum this time. She wore a thin cashmere coat with a skirt that fit her figure. She sat very gently by the window, which matched the elegant and noble style of the restaurant.
Seeing Qu Zao from the window, Shen Ru was obviously stunned for a while, waved to him hesitantly, wanted to laugh, but couldn't.Qu Zao entered, sat opposite Shen Ru, and cheerfully asked her how many days she would be staying in City B this time.
"Leave early tomorrow morning." Shen Ru scanned him up and down with worried eyes, and explained to him, "I didn't want to come, but your Uncle Chen insisted on letting me come. I was busy all day yesterday, and I have to go back to the hotel later Go to a party."
Shen Ru hesitated and said, "Xiaozao..."
Qu Zao asked suddenly: "Is Uncle Chen okay?" He intentionally blocked her concern.
"Well, it's much better!" Shen Ru nodded, "But I'm probably going to miss this mayoral election... Fortunately, the court was reasonable and granted him a long vacation, and he can work while recuperating. You, Uncle Chen, mean , He can apply for retirement in two years, so there's no need to worry about it."
"I'm sorry..." Qu Zao suddenly apologized, "If it wasn't for me, Uncle Chen wouldn't be like this either."
Shen Ru smiled and scolded him: "Silly boy, what does it have to do with you?"
"Your Uncle Chen has been working day and night for so many years, and he has a lot of old problems. I have advised him not to work too hard. While he is hospitalized this time, we can take care of any problems together. When he gets old Then you don’t have to go to the hospital every day.”
Qu Zao took Shen Ru's hand, and it's been a few months since they saw each other. Both of them have lost a lot of weight, and even the two hands that are holding each other look emaciated.
"Mom, are you okay?" The moment Qu Zao asked, the sockets of Qu Zao's eyes began to turn red again, describing him as haggard and pitiful.
Shen Ru looked at him for a while, and then smiled again, "Well, my mother has become busy again recently, and the school can't take too long a leave, and your Uncle Chen feels sorry for me running between the hospital and the school, so I'm not very happy for me to see him. So Your mother is like a spy now, just visiting her husband and waiting for him to fall asleep."
"Oh," Qu Zao nodded, "then you should eat well, you've lost weight."
Shen Ru has been enduring it all the time. From the second she saw Qu Zao, she wanted to ask him why he became so thin, why he was so haggard, and why he shaved his hair so short?
The weather is more than ten degrees below zero, why are you wearing so thin, didn't you bring winter clothes, or haven't gone out for too long, and you don't know the temperature outside?
But what would Quzao say, she should know the answer.The children who grew up held in the palm of their hands, the children who can't wait to share any secrets with themselves, now they sit face to face, but feel that each other is far away and strange...
A taboo word appeared in the relationship between Shen Ru and his son who talked about everything. It was a man's name, which could only be circumvented lamely and clumsily.
"Xiaozao, come and try on this dress." Shen Ru picked up the big bag at her feet, "It's not easy to go abroad now. It just so happened that my colleague went abroad to do a project, so I asked him to bring a few sets."
Qu Zao took it, took out the thick and heavy clothes and put them on, they fit well in every place, but the cuffs were a bit short.
"Oh, it turns out that my son looks so good in this color!" Shen Ru exclaimed, "I thought it was gray in color, and I was a little worried that you would look too mature in it, so it looks so good!"
Qu Zao smiled cooperatively, "I will follow my mother."
Shen Ru looked at it carefully, and couldn't help nodding, "Well, this color suits you better than black, so it's a good thing to change it..."
"Change?" Qu Zao took off the down jacket, folded it, and put it on the chair beside him.The dress was a size smaller than what he usually wears.
"Ah... I bought two pieces," Shen Ru whispered, "I gave the other one to Xiaoci, he thinks this color is more suitable for you."
Cheerfulness only stayed on the face for a few seconds, and then melted, Qu Zao became depressed again, and echoed: "Brother's vision is really good."
And the black down jacket should also suit him very well.It's just that his one should be a bit bigger than his figure, Qu Zao imagined Chen Ci's appearance in the city wearing a large black down jacket, and thought it was a little funny, so he was happy for a while.
Shen Ru was always paying attention to the changes in Qu Zao's expression, and sighed subtly a few times.Later she proposed to let Qu Zao attend the evening banquet with him, but Qu Zao refused very much, and she didn't insist anymore.
Qu Zao was walking towards the dormitory wearing the down jacket his mother gave him. On the way, he suddenly felt a little cold on his cheeks. The young students who came towards him stretched out their hands, folded their palms, and looked strange. He realized that it was snowing.
It rarely snows in M City, only once in my impression, the weather was very overcast, the snowflakes fell slowly, and when they fell on the ground, they turned into mud.It's very different from the snow in City B. After just a few steps, a thin layer of white has accumulated on the ground.
A girl passed by Qu Zao, rubbed her hands back and forth and said to her companion, "It's so cold."
Qu Zao thought as he walked, he was not cold at all, thanks to the down jacket he was wearing, he was warm now, and after walking for about 10 minutes, fine beads of sweat oozed from his back.
Then he realized that city M couldn't wear such thick coats at all. The reason why Shen Ru bought two on purpose and gave them to Chen Ci to choose first was to show him kindness and repair their relationship...
You see, all of them are trapped in the abyss, but Shen Ru and Chen Ci are trying to get out; only Qu Zao, he seems to have identified his own destiny, and let himself fall and sink.
Qu Zao finally realized that he was too selfish.
As winter comes, the bar's evening business is booming.Fortunately, Chen Ci had learned some bartending skills before, and when he was particularly busy in the second half of the night, he would stay behind the bar to support the bartenders in the store, often muddled through the night.
When Christmas was approaching, the bartender suddenly suggested cooking cinnamon mulled wine as a new product of the season, and Chen Ci immediately agreed.At the same time, I also learned that his bartender looks young and has a background of studying abroad. This small bar is really Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon.
Xia Yu shook her head faintly, "Actually, I mentioned it to a little boy by chance today when I was in the mutual aid group."
"Mutual aid group?" The bar was very quiet after closing, Chen Ci calculated the turnover of the day and asked while knocking on the calculator.
"Well, psychological... Mutual aid group," Xia Yu lit a cigarette, "The founder is my teacher's wife, who invited me to go, saying that I don't socialize too much."
Chen Ci snorted and nodded in agreement.
"The little boy seems to have dropped out of school. He came to receive psychological counseling from my teacher, just in time for our group activities. He and I are in the same group." White wisps of smoke floated between Xia Yu's eyebrows, and he looked very Vulnerable, like a butterfly with injured wings.
"He asked me if I had that kind of warm wine, preferably sweeter, and I thought of mulledwine (spiced mulled wine), which is warm and sweet."
Chen Ci smiled, "It's really a boy's taste! But there should be many customers who like it, especially female customers. We have to let our waiters take the initiative to recommend it to them."
Xia Yu was noncommittal, and said, "My teacher asked me to talk to the little boy more, and I will bring him when the time comes. If you are busy, you can take care of it for me." He added, "Listen to my teacher, the little boy's condition Doesn't seem very good."
Xia Yu's tone hardly fluctuated, but Chen Ci could tell that Xia Yu cared about him.So he patted his chest and promised that as long as he was Xia Yu's friend, he would definitely make him feel "at home" in the Kite Bar.
Xia Yu smiled, took off her apron and walked to the lounge, telling him: "Don't drink too much, go home early."
But it was too late. Boss Chen, who had just settled the account, had already taken out his private possession from the hidden compartment under the bar and poured it into a cup.
Qu Zao went back to City M alone and rented a small studio.
At the end of November, the school office found him and said that he had missed too many classes, and he had not been corrected after repeated reminders, and gave him several options.Qu Zao chose the easiest one, and spent a whole morning completing the withdrawal procedures.After thinking about it, I returned to my hometown.
Naturally, Shen Ru didn't know about his decision, and he didn't know how to tell her. This seemed to be another extremely self-decision.
Fortunately, the price of goods in M city is far lower than that of B city, where every land and money is very expensive. Shen Ru's monthly living expenses are enough for him to rent a house and live in M city.With some savings on hand, he began to receive formal psychological counseling.
Ashley, a psychological counselor, mentioned to him a concept [Pleasing Personality], and some concepts such as trauma repair and traumatic stress. He was very confused, but Ashley told him not to be impatient.
"It took you more than ten years to get out of the shadow, and it is absolutely impossible to get a cure through one or two psychological counseling." Ashley said, "You have to give yourself time to think and grow. You have to treat yourself well."
"Try to accept yourself, including your past."
Accept your past.This is Qu Zao's first step.
Those things that he keeps avoiding, beautifying, and trying to forget, he will try to face them and accept their existence.It cannot be erased, and even if it is erased, it is meaningless.
The first few psychological consultations took a long time. From afternoon to late night, Qu Zao collapsed countless times and reorganized his spirit... Fortunately, Ashley was always professional and patient, and kept absorbing those nightmarish past events.
Later, Qu Zao met Xia Yu, and after another mutual aid group, Xia Yu came to him and invited him to try mulled wine in the bar where he worked with a straight face.
"Hot and sweet." Xia Yu said expressionlessly, "Our bar has started to serve this kind of wine."
Qu Zao asked him to have dinner with him, Xia Yu shrugged and said "Yes".The pair ended up going to a fast food restaurant and ordered two incomprehensible Christmas combos, which they couldn't finish.
Then he followed Xia Yu and walked into the kite for the first time.From a long distance, he noticed the man at the bar drinking wine lonely.
Why are you so thin?
Liar, big liar.
Qu Zao felt a deep sense of betrayal, didn't they all agree to him, eat well, why are you so thin? !
"Brother Chen," Xia Yu nodded to him familiarly, "Help me take care of the children, I'll go change my work clothes."
He turned his head to look at Qu Zao and introduced them, "Qu Zao, Chen Ci. Compassionate kindness." He looked at Chen Ci again, "Brother Chen, Qu Zao. The seaweed's Zao."
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The author has something to say:
It will probably be over tomorrow. I don't know why I feel so reluctant, so I keep crying.
Both Xiaozao and Xiaoci are doing well!
Thank you for your company, I have said thank you many times, each time it is really from the heart, thank you all.I am very happy to write.
Last but not least, I didn't mean to not reply to comments! !I have seen it all, but I can’t connect to the ladder after the holiday. I try to connect every hour, and comment when I connect.Abusive chapters are ruthless and affectionate~